ponedeljek, 14. oktober 2019

How do I say goodbye?!

ponedeljek, 14. oktober 2019

How do I say goodbye?!


The sole fact that I've always been living feeling kinda guilty because I always though that I just wasn't doing enough and wasn't living by my full potential might not come as a surprise. As much as I appear to be the kind of person that doesn't care and stress about how others see me, I have spend hours and days and weeks doubting myself. I've been giving up on this blog slowly but surely for a whole year now. It is not what it has been and it makes me sad. The real reason is I kept this thought in my head that maybe my words aren't worth reading and I was debating if I should write at all or just give up. But how do I say goodbye to this?! I can't. Parting with this platform that has been there for me for so long and helped me to understand so much and gave me opportunity to do things I am doing right now; I just don't see myself doing that any time soon. But it is not fair to those, who have been there for this little world of mine and still are. You see, I am full of guilt.

But guilt aside, I've just been too busy. In the last couple of weeks I've been struggling to live. I guess in a good sense, but it is debatable. Being everywhere and doing everything, never saying no, is what I do all my life. Sometimes I think I am doing too much for my own good and then there are weeks, when I don't do anything remotely productive. There is nothing in between. From one extreme to another. I fill discs with photos so fast these days. My weeks are filled and my anxiety of meeting new people is almost not existent at this point, because I've been busy. I guess hard work pays off. I like to think I can make it in this world, if I only work hard, even if I don't currently have it all. And my photography has definitely skyrocketed.



But this is my comeback. I want to be active here, even if I only post like a bunch of photos with no real content. Just know that maybe my days are filled with me taking up to 2000 photos a day with Thor and Orca by my side, eating something I can grab really fast and sleeping for 4 hours and then drinking my 3 coffee cups in the morning and drive and repeat. My life changed drastically you could say, but my priorities changed and I love my life now and I love where this is going. I have so many plans it is hard for me to comprehend. But still if you want to hang out or collaborate, write me. I am always down. 😉

I'd like to officially welcome myself back, thanks for having me again.



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petek, 13. september 2019

We're right here

petek, 13. september 2019

We're right here


Don’t get stuck. Move, travel, take a class, take a risk. There is a season for wildness and a season for settledness, and this is neither. This season is about becoming. Don’t lose yourself at happy hour, but don’t lose yourself on the corporate ladder either. Stop every once in a while and go out to coffee or climb in bed with your journal. Now is your time. Walk closely with people you love. Don’t get stuck in the past, and don’t try to fast-forward yourself into a future you haven’t yet earned. Give today all the love and intensity and courage you can, and keep travelling honestly along life’s path. – Shauna Niequist


Nothing in this life is half as important to me as them. Sometimes I get annoyed with myself because I say it so much, but it doesn't make it any less true. The funny thing is that people look at them and they see dogs and I see so much more. They gave me a purpose and they gave me opportunities to be happy, to do things, to live a better life, to travel, to love and to be loved. The first thing they teach you is how to tame them, but I am not their owner, we are roommates, we live in coexistence, we lead the same lives. It is the purest form of love and friendship. Others will say I overreact, that it is crazy, not normal, but I just found something inside them no one else sees and I would rather die than let that go. 


The most important thing they gave me is to show me that I am never lonely. Because there is a big difference between being alone and being lonely. And I never had a problem with being alone, because I am very surrounded and my life is a constant motion filled with people. But I struggled with being lonely, even when I wasn't alone, and with them I never have to feel lonely. Their touch is home. You'd have to be a fool not to see that.

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četrtek, 05. september 2019

Chasing Orca

četrtek, 05. september 2019

Chasing Orca


The idea behind Chasing Orca was born a year ago, when I created a profile on Instagram called @chasing_orca. It was a simple idea to have a profile specifically made to show you life of my puppy Orca. Soon after I realised I like taking the same style of pictures in different places and I actually saw that my blog was full of similar photos. I was thinking a lot about this. Is it a good idea? How do I make it work? And then I just said "fuck it" and did it.



The support I received was absolutely amazing. Just in two days I gained almost 200 new followers on Instagram and went from 120 to more than 300! I've never experienced anything quite like that. I got my photos shared all over WEheartIT and met a few lovely people.


All.in.the.matter.of.two.days.




To be honest I am so pumped and so excited to work on this. I don't think I've ever been so driven to do something like this in my life. In the end it is all for my dogs. Everything I do it is for them.

The whole concept was born from the idea to show my dogs the world. And they have already seen so much of it. I dare to say almost as much as I did. I live by these wise words:

IF MY DOGS CAN'T COME, I AM NOT GOING.

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četrtek, 22. avgust 2019

Take one box a day.

četrtek, 22. avgust 2019

Take one box a day.


One of my dear passions is bullet journaling. Over the years I've had countless notebooks, journals, to do notebooks, little notepads and similar kind of papery devices. It helps me stay organised, but above all else, I write down my everyday adventures in it that I want to remember, it makes me happy. This one has a lot of pictures in it and plans and notes. And it is not really a secret that lately I've not been the best. Mentally. Physically I've actually been thriving.

I don't feel the best when I am in Mengeš. Deep down I don't like accepting it as my home. I don't have a daily routine or goals here. I just come here to let the three months pass and I can't wait to go back to Koper. It sounds sad, but I like my life by the sea more than anything else. One more good month to go and then I am going back.

But it has been hard. I work hard to stay happy every day and not to be a downer for everyone else around me. Because I know I can be a pain in the ass. Nevertheless, I created this idea that I called 'take one box a day'.

It is basically me planning every day in my bullet journal and then taking one box of problems a day. Today I am actually taking two, because I am brave and dramatic. But I think it is so important for my state of mind that I don't take too much upon myself, when I am feeling this low. So, every problem I solve gives me a weird satisfaction to know I am actually okay and that life is not really that hard. Because life really isn't that hard for me and I acknowledge that. Sometimes I get lost because location is a huge factor for me. It has always been a huge factor, since I moved like 13 times already in 23 years of my life.

So, like I strongly suggest that if you are waging war in your head sometimes, like I do, that you don't  wage it yourself. Talk and write. Writing for me, makes all the difference in the world. And maybe try the 'take one box a day' challenge if you think it might help. I think the hardest part in life is to rebuild yourself, it takes a strong person.
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I am at war, but at the end of the day I rest easy

I am at war, but at the end of the day I rest easy


My dogs are absolutely perfect. Perfect couple of mischievous asses, but I love them more than life itself. Every day I go rest easy when those two licking my face. I get to the sort of calm state of mind that everything is just right the way it is. So, I gathered some of the pictures from the last couple of months, for your viewing pleasure, of course.



















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ponedeljek, 15. julij 2019

people pretend you are a bad person so they don't feel guilty for the things they did to you.

ponedeljek, 15. julij 2019

people pretend you are a bad person so they don't feel guilty for the things they did to you.


I am a total textbook person and you won't need any manuals with me to figure out what I think and how I feel and what I want because I will tell you and I will show you. You will get a very clear notice. That is a very cool thing feature I have, I think. I live a simple life and I can't stand drama. If you do me wrong I will let you know and I will try my best to fix the situation and there are not many bad things in the world you could do to make me hate you for real. But if someone wants to deliberately hurt me, that stuff hurts me the most. I can deal with accidents and mistakes, but don't hurt me on purpose.

Because I have too much dignity to hurt people back. It can't be done, it doesn't feel right and I don't have it in me. On the other hand I have no problem of removing anyone from my life. I will lose your number and block you from all social media. I call it 'cleansing'. It is hard for a second, to click on that button. It is hard to delete what I cared about so much for so long. But once I do it, I don't feel sad anymore. Because if I do that, this is it. I don't want you in my life anymore. And I won't create fake profiles to stalk you. I won't have the need to. Sometimes I think to myself that it is cold and that I can't feel as much as others, but I quickly realise how awesome it is to be loved by me (and I mean friendships more than relationships) because man, I love big.


Once you are out of my life, I am pretty sure there is no way back in. And no sneaky business will help you here. You can pretend I am a bad person all you want, if that will help you feel less guilty for the things you've done, I don't mind. But just know I have you all figured out. And you can cause all the drama and I won't move a muscle. Because like I said. Once you are out, you are out for real. But just know that what you decide to do, you are always doing it to yourself. If you are doing bad things to hurt others, you are actually going to end up hurt. And if you do good things, it is good for the soul at least. If that makes sense.

That is why it is so important that you loose all the negativity and live as simple as you can. It is good for the soul. I know for sure most of the toxic people from my life are long gone and ever since I felt my true self.
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sreda, 05. junij 2019

I don't call myself a feminist.

sreda, 05. junij 2019

I don't call myself a feminist.

I don't call myself a feminist, because most men and women will think I am one of those crazy girls they saw on the news once, screaming things that don't even make sense. But I am a strong believer that both males and females (and others) should be treated fairly equal. See, I am not asking for girls to be able to do things most men are good at if they aren't good at them. I am not asking for you to say "men should experience pregnancies and periods". That is absurd. I am just asking and believing that both genders can understand one another, and then in response be equal.

It saddens me that a lot of people don't understand or even try to understand the opposite sex. We all have it hard and easy. We take sides and defend ourselves. Girls expecting guys to ask them out first, to text them first, they want them to have a lot of money, a nice car and to treat them like princesses without doing that in return. On top of that, they take pride if a man calls them hard to control, hard to deal with. And men, looking for a type like "cute, but psychopath". That scares me. Because my mom taught me to treat a man with respect and seek for that respect everywhere I go. I don't want to raise all seven hells for somebody I love because I am a psychopath.

We had to write a paper on our ideal boyfriend/girlfriend. They even said "don't leave out any details, write about the height, hair, eyes, clothes, characteristics... The more details, the better." And I sat in front of my computer and wondered what on earth is my ideal guy. All I could write was:

"I want someone, who will be able to talk things through with me when we disagree and will want to spend time with me. BONUS points: it helps if he considers me as the best person in the world and sends me memes, but no pressure."

When we had to read that, it felt like everyone wrote car ads. Let's just say that the teacher didn't appreciate my almost empty paper, which is absurd if you ask me. But I don't think my dream guy should have a head full of curls, brown eyes or wear certain clothes. I am just looking for someone I will enjoy spending time with and they will enjoy spending time with me. And I get particularly sick when girls wrote that they are looking for a rich guy. It is a joke. If you want money, earn it. If you want a nice house or a nice car, get it yourself. I am not done, the number one thing guys wrote was skinny. Please. I get that you have to be visually attracted to someone, but number one thing - skinny?!

Maybe it is just me, but do people have weird priorities. Imagine what would happen if boys wrote that same paper with the same words girls chose to describe them and girls wrote "skinny" and "cute phycho". Everyone would be offended.

The one thing I wanted to talk about is being equal. Equal work, equal paycheck. Female judges, Male chefs. The worst thing you could do is bring somebody down based on gender. Think!

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