torek, 27. avgust 2013

I KNOW YOU CARE

I am a very strange soul. I like drawing and coloring and I really love sparkles and glow in the dark stuff. I love big eyes and less makeup, and nice clothes. I like oversized stuff too but I love nice dresses more. That is me. When I am able to feel, I feel everything so deeply. If I can do something nice for someone I will always do my best. You may read this and think what a cool person I am but lets see the full picture here. Being me is so much more than this. Since I stand for that I feel everything so deeply let me explain where is this story or I should just call it my life going wrong.

You see, I know that theres millions of girls who got attached to celebrities or some other people. And I am one of them. For example I see Chloe Grace Moretz and I fall in love with her and I literally know everything about her. Same story is with Robert Sheehan and loads of others. But now for a year or two I have been OBSESSING over dark people, dark roles. Let me say this. I was into Effy (from Skins) so much I end up in a hospital. When I see that person on the screen I (better not) usualy fall so deeply madly in love with it. I do everything just to be like that person. Maybe that has to do with the fact that I want to be an actress or I dont know. Its not even healthy at some point. You probably already know why I was in a hospital so, I wouldnt like to put it in words again. But it is literally killing me.

Being someone I am not.
I could not survived that. I can be honest with you. Its so horrible I dont think I would be able to take care of myself. I can only thank my God for sending someone to take so much care for me. To actually really care. And I know you care. I see it everyday. You show me.
''Being an actor means being an instrument for someone else. I want to give myself completely.''  


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