torek, 14. januar 2014

IT'S REALLY FUCKING EXHAUSTING

LOVING YOU. The moment I saw you I knew it would be the closest i get to be... close.

Right now I have stuff in school I need to handle, very dramatic relationship and I feel bad. Its maybe because its the end of semester, I dont know, maybe I am just stressed out. But I am fighting a lot with J, because we disagree on very important thing. And I can honestly say that I have no idea how are we gonna fix it. You might think every thing can be solved, but not this one guys. Its really hard, and of course is not helping me in this moment. And he will probably be mad cuz I just shared it with you. But i have to say it out loud to someone, and you know because I am a blogger... Just couldnt not type it down. i tried journal again, but I feel that if I write in it, I write all bad stuff, stuff that I dont really mean, but I believe in when I am sad or mad. and then there is school. Its really exhausting and I have a headaches all the time and I am just under a lot of stress. I just need something, someone. Because you all know that my way of "relaxing" is watching Effy and thats just something I am not allowed to do. And I am gonna say this too. Theres is this girl. Its from J's school, who is probably really sad and needs attention. And at first i have to say it I kinda liked her, she was funny and girly, but now I really hate her, HAHA I mean not hate. Its just I dont want to be around people like her. She was mean to me for couple of months and then I was mean to her when I lost it, and now WE lets say bitch eachother, even though I know LOADS about her and I would never use that against her, and she sure as fuck knows stuff about me, and she keeps it against me like a stupid child haha. Anyway, Effy. yes I am into her every day more and more, its just what I do to feel good. I dont want to be dramatic but this is also the way I express the way i feel, because I cant be really honest with everyone, well I can be with anja and pina and melona, but not to some people. not anymore. I feel like I am loosing control. and thats whats bothers me. A lot. 

CMOOON guyss kaya and Robert in the same picture. Lets fangirl and die of happinessss. I love adore and yeah this two. I am obsessed <3333333 hottttnesss overloaded. (whats with his hair lol, but stilllll<3)


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