četrtek, 29. januar 2015

COLDPLAY

I have been recently thinking about one specific person from my past, and I couldn't find a way to deal with it. You may call it crazy but I had nightmares about this person like everyday for the past two weeks and I couldn't make myself stop fearing and thinking about it. You see, this is the person that damaged my life the most, and I honestly thought I was over with the drama, but how can I be over it, if I am afraid I am going to see him again eventually. I had my scenario all planned. I walk away and pretend I've never saw him, but I don't think I am strong enough. I am afraid of him so much that the chances of me crying are like 90% if I see him. So, I avoid all his favorite places, his friends, his hometown, everything. I was crazily strong for two years now, but why do I feel so weak now? I have no idea honestly. There is this Coldplay song, and it describes exactly how I feel. I known this song for years, but now I can relate to it like never before. I dont want to be afraid anymore. Here is the song:

You said I'm gonna buy this place and burn it down 

I'm gonna put it six feet underground 
You said I'm gonna buy this place and watch it fall
Stand here beside me baby in the crumbling walls 
Oh I'm gonna buy this place and start a fire
Stand here until I fill all your hearts desires
Because I'm gonna buy this place and see it burn
And do back the things it did to you in return


You said I'm gonna buy a gun and start a war

If you can tell me something worth fighting for
Oh and I'm gonna buy this place is what I said
Blame it upon a rush of blood to the head

Honey, all the movements you're starting to make

See me crumble and fall on my face
And I know the mistakes that I've made
See it all disappear without trace
And they call as they beckon you on
They say start as you need to go on
Start as you need to go on

You said I'm gonna buy this place and see it go

And stand here beside me baby, watch the orange glow
Some'll laugh and some just sit and cry
But you just sit down there and you wonder why

So I'm gonna buy a gun and start a war

If you can tell me something worth fighting for
And I'm gonna buy this place is what I said
Blame it upon a rush of blood to the head
Oh to the head

Honey, all the movements you're starting to make

See me crumble and fall on my face
And I know the mistakes that I've made
See it all disappear without trace
And they call as they beckon you on
They say start as you need to go on
As you need to go on
As you need to go on

So meet me by the bridge

Oh meet me by the lane
When am I gonna see that pretty face again
Oh meet me on the road
Meet me where I said
Blame it all upon a rush of blood to the head

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