petek, 27. november 2015

A VERY COOL LIST

petek, 27. november 2015

A VERY COOL LIST


If you know me I am a desperate crier. No matter what is happening to me, I cry all the time. I even cry if I see someone else cry. But lately I have been trying to cry less, which is clearly not working for me. And I made a list of what intrigued me to cry in the past month.
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I saw a documentary about wild life and there was footage of fox trying to get a fluffy bunny and the fluffy bunny got away.
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My grandparents let me borrow their bike and I thought that was so nice.
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I baked a perfect cookie and was really happy about it.
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Because I started re-watching Agents Of S.H.I.E.L.D. and I knew what is gonna happen to Jemma (even thought it was gonna end up well) and how emotional Fitz is going to be and I couldn’t hold me sh*t together. I was crying for an hour.
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I made a funny joke and my ex didn't get it.
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FitzSimmons kiss.
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There was no chocolate in the house to bake chocolate cookies and I hate cookies that are not made with chocolate.
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I saw a video about a dog.
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I saw a video about a couple.
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My friend started crying because of a breakup and I was sad for her.
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My bus came early and I missed it for a second.
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I actually shed a tear because of my own breakup. The breakup was 2 weeks ago. Or even 3? It hit me for a second after all that time. But then I was okay.
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The launch of my new blog was also very emotional.

Man, that is one cool list. 
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sreda, 25. november 2015

I AM A PASTRY MASTER

sreda, 25. november 2015

I AM A PASTRY MASTER


It is not even news that I am studying pastry. Yes, pastry. I feel so relaxed when I am doing something sweet. When I cook I always have deep thoughts and think about boyfriends and life in general. I always feel so unprepared, but not when I am baking. I literally find answers to every questions I have, and trust me there are many of them. But today I had my first practical part of actually learning pastry and it was great. The fact that I learned so many new things, I have never heard about before, is amazing. I thought I knew a lot about it, but I was so wrong. Like did you know that when you are boiling chocolate there mustn’t be a single teardrop of water in it. Not in the bowl, not by accident, not by butter or anything like that. That is fascinating right? I always put some butter with chocolate, but that is wrong. Very wrong. You can only give oil in it or coconut butter. That is probably the coolest thing I have learned today, even thought there were many more impressive things to get out of the lesson. I love listening to people who are older and show so much heart at what they do. It inspires me. The best part of the experience is definitely meeting so many amazing people that share the same passion. You know, when I was in high school, I had to deal with people who hated some subject as well as me and we didn’t share the same interest, but here we have the same goal and that makes it so special. Lately I have also shown a little bit of interest in bio-chem. That’s a first. I hated biology. I HATED BIOLOGY. It was surely the number one subject I hate through my whole primary and high school years, but lately I have studied atoms and how they work and how we actually work and it is great. I feel like Simmons haha. Not, but truly, I love it. And besides I had to study microbiology and chemistry for pastry school. Maybe I want to become a scientist. That sounds so cool. Eva the scientist. I just got chills hihi. It is so late, so I better leave before I embarrass myself even more.
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torek, 24. november 2015

BRILLIANT

torek, 24. november 2015

BRILLIANT


All of a sudden I had to grow up. I feel like it happened over night. One day my mother took care of everything and the next day I had to do it myself. It was strange to be honest, but it made me really proud of myself. I was always the girl who didn’t need anything just because I didn’t want to do it. Like for example I still don’t have driving license, because I simply didn’t need it and I was afraid to do it. But now, I feel like I am not afraid of anything. There are so many things I did this month, I feel so proud of myself. And I have to tell you what I did, obviously.

-       I signed up for pastry school.
-       I took care of my health insurance.
-       I took care of CSD.
-       I bought my pastry requirements.
-       I bought a domain and web hosting.
-       I learned how to deal with HTML.
-       I did this website.
-       I decided to make a drastic change by giving this blog a different name.
-       I decided to stop crying and I must say I am doing great (I am an obsessive crier).
-       I will learn how to drive.
-       I went to work.
-       I decided to buy a ferret.
-       I am moving away and I have accepted it.
-       I met new friends.
-       I reconnected with my old friends.
-       I made it better with my dad and grandparents.

I mean if you are not proud after I did all that drastic decisions in less than a month (2 weeks actually) then you are impossible to impress. I am such a fool, talking about myself like that, but come on guys, it is the first time for me. If this blog or should I now say website (haha #proud) is not for sharing my thoughts and stuff with you, then it is pointless to it anyway. I got a hate mail the other day, which I enjoyed a lot! I was laughing my heart out. I just think you should know this, because it is the best. But apparently I am in love with myself. I mean I love getting mails from you, even if they are hateful. You just need to understand one thing that no matter how much you dislike someone and you want to show it, in the end it only looks like you are trying too hard. You say mean stuff to me but honestly you took that much time only for me and I appreciate even that. Yet I get only positive feedback from you and this was a rare thing. 
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ponedeljek, 23. november 2015

FITZSIMMONS

ponedeljek, 23. november 2015

FITZSIMMONS


Today we are gonna talk about Agents Of S.H.I.E.L.D., which I will write in the future as AOS, because it is hard to write ‘Shield’ with dots and capital letters together and I am lazy and I always write AOS. I started watching that show when it was in the middle of its first season and the reason for it was Fitz and Simmons. And since then, I patiently waited for them to become a couple and when I say patiently, I mean it. They had so many up’s and down’s and it was hard to watch them managing to stay together. In first season they were dropped off on the bottom of the ocean and Fitz was brain-damaged, but they made it through and in the second season Simmons was sent to another planet by accident and stayed alive, and Fitz saved her. But then she met this other dude there and they gave each other hope of survival and she kinda fell for him and then Fitz saved her. It was the first time someone brought anyone from that planet back. And Fitz was going mental without her. And when they could finally be together Jemma said she loves the other dude and then something happened.
FitzSimmons first kiss. How trilling is that to even think about. They are adorable and I want them to always be together and yeah, I am doing some serious fangirling there, but you really need to see how it all went down, when Fitz said that they are cursed. I was so confused, because the kiss was awesome and it wasn’t awkward at all. If they don’t end up together, I swear I don’t know what I will do. If I may discuss this subject - no matter how hard and how (disclaimer!) fucked up it is, if two people love each other and if they are meant to be together, they will find a way. Love will find a way. Look, Amy came back to Sheldon, Fitz Simmons happened, in the end of How I Met Your Mother Robin and Ted found a way, you get what I am saying, right? I know I am just stating TV shows, but I can tell you that the story for series is written for the purpose that people could relate to it and it is trying to revive a realistic world. But I can tell you from my own case. It is 100% true. Life is not even that complicated. What fits or should I say Fitz (hahah, see what I did there) together will eventually end up together. Sometimes life throws bricks at us and tries to tear us down just to see if we can manage the pressure, but at some point it always gets us what we need and want and deserve and all that stuff. It is not so complicated anymore. 
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nedelja, 22. november 2015

COMET

nedelja, 22. november 2015

COMET


 Complexity of any story makes it the best part. For example when you hear gossips from your friend, random things that are told to you about the main problem will not impress you as much as a few sentences that are really important. And that is how I feel about movies. There are a lot of movies I love to watch, but then there after a long time of not being the most impressed comes a movie that blows my mind. And one of those movies is Comet. It is a very complex movie and to be honest I would have to watch it again to fully understand it, that’s how brilliant it is. I loved Emmy Rossum in it, in fact I love her everywhere, in every movie, so that was a plus. But I wasn’t sure about other cast and I was pleasantly surprised. But I must tell you this right now; it is not a movie for someone who is not looking for deeper meaning and is very artistic mind. The whole movie is jumping back and forth in time of lives of two people. It is sometimes hard to figure what is even going on or if it is all just a dream or if it is real. But it shows the moments of the people colliding so perfectly and that is what impressed me the most. It shows the moment when the boy first met the girl in such a true way it actually made me feel pain in my chest, because I feel everything so deeply. It is exactly how I felt when I first saw someone that I fall for. It brought so many memories and that was brilliant. Unfortunately or actually in opinion luckily the movie doesn’t end so well, which made you guess what happened. But also it is not a very happy movie. I guess you could say it is adorable and charming in some parts, but it is mostly sad. Just my taste. 
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sobota, 21. november 2015

I ALLOW CHRISTMAS

sobota, 21. november 2015

I ALLOW CHRISTMAS


It is official, I approve Christmas spirit and all that comes with it, for it is the first day of snow here in Slovenia. The excitement in people’s eyes was amazing when they saw the first snow. I just happened to be outside when it happened and I am telling you it was wonderful. It was beyond wonderful; it was magical. I thought that since I am alone again, I would feel sad, but despite that I feel great. I feel it is just me against the world when there are moments like this one. It empowers me to do better and lately I have done some pretty cool stuff. I signed for school, I am learning to cook, I will start doing driving lessons and managed to get things done for my health and things that are important, which I must say it was a first for me.  To be honest I did more in these two weeks that I ever did and I feel quite proud of myself. I think I look more relaxed as well, but to be honest it was hard for me and it is getting easier for me everyday. But to really make this post about Christmas spirit I decided to make a little playlist of songs I listen at this time. I think I had the best CD of Christmas music and I am sure I will share music from there with you.

Jack's Lament- All American Rejects Version

Coldplay - Christmas Lights

Train - Shake up Christmas

She & Him - Baby, It's Cold Outside

Paul McCartney - Wonderful Christmas Time

Mariah Carey - All I Want For Christmas Is You 

Love Actually - The Original Soundtrack Christmas Is All Around 

I am aware that some of them don't really have a Christmas theme, but they remind me of it for some reason. Like I said, it is a small collection of my all time favourites. I hope you are having fun in the snow or I hope you will have it soon, because it just sets the mood.

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torek, 17. november 2015

THE BROKEN-HEARTED ARTIST

torek, 17. november 2015

THE BROKEN-HEARTED ARTIST


This is what I learned today. Art never comes from happiness. I was always the one to say you can be artistic and so happy and good at what you do. No matter what art you are doing, it could be drawing, singing or acting. I noticed that since I got my heart broken, I am so good at what I do. Some kind of pain is screaming inside of me. I am not as much inspired and all I want is to sleep and study and play video games, but when I actually try to act, I am brilliant at it. My drawing is 100% more meaningful and my singing sounds better, more emotional. It is not just sad, but better for sure. Maybe artists are meant to have their heart broken. I know that you are probably not agreeing with me on this one, but I am talking about my experience. When I was happy, I did funny things better, but now I can do serious roles great and I can actually feel more emotions. I am not sure, but I think that this comes from the recent events, but I could be wrong. Maybe I got better at it because of something else, but the change can be seen. I was thinking to actually do a short movie, which could be challenging. But right now I am lacking motivation and I am not sure about the idea. I mean I had some pretty cool ideas. We will see. Recently I haven’t posted so much on Youtube, but I posted privately and that was a problem, because I couldn't post for the world to see. And as hard as it is right now for me, I am trying the hardest to make this blog perfect and to learn HTML and just gathering informations and doing something about quality. I am still on fire, no matter what comes in life, no matte how many will hurt me, I will still stand strong. I am buring alive, fire meet gasoline style.

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petek, 06. november 2015

I AM DOING SOMETHING REALLY EXCITING

petek, 06. november 2015

I AM DOING SOMETHING REALLY EXCITING

Hello everybody & welcome back to my blog!

So, two years ago I made a promise that if I reach the certain number of views here, I will get a domain and a professional to show me how to actually make a proper blog, how to make it good and just go a little more pro. I will also buy custom-made blog. And I kept it all a secret for this couple of months when I am getting closer and closer to my goal, but I (predictable) will reach my goal in one month. I spend so many hours online looking for perfect person to actually make blog for me and tell me what to do, and now I am having my top three choices, and I couldn't be more pleased with them. So, guys, we are going big, we did this together. 


I would just like to say thank you for reading and thank you for support; you have been my biggest motivation. What started as a simple confession continued to hobby and become my favorite part of the day. I love it when I get to write the things that are important to me and know that I leave a permanent mark out there.

Clearly, I am going to make a few changes up here and one of those is definitely going to be deleting sad posts, so if you are in desperate need to save some posts, it is your chance, because sooner or later some will be removed. Don't worry, I won't delete popular posts and subjects, just the stuff I did that I feel embarrassed looking at (haha). 

I am not quite sure about the name of this blog. It has always been Eva Premk Monroe and now I kind of feel attached to it, but on the other side I have some really cool names that I would love to have, but that is still under discussion. 

In general this blog won't change content. I will literally write the stuff I feel about. Lately I am inspired in beauty and fashion, but I don't think that this is a subject I haven't spoken about, so you are used to it, aren't you. 

We are going to have so much fun and I will continue making you happy.
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sreda, 04. november 2015

TELL 'HELL NO' TO STRESS! #LetsReadCosmpolitan

sreda, 04. november 2015

TELL 'HELL NO' TO STRESS! #LetsReadCosmpolitan

This is another post of my mini series called 'Lets Read Cosmopolitan'. For this month's edition I decided to talk about stress. Almost every one is dealing with stress at some point and here are some tips that help and relax you when you are having those stressful days.

Paint, draw, color, and be artistic.
This is what helped me and I would say that I am not very good at it, but there is something really cool about creating something (even if it is not a Picasso). In the end you feel great.

Take a break. Take a nap.
To be honest this might not be a good idea when you have a deadline and you are stressing about it, but it works great if you just got into a fight with someone or if you broke up with your boyfriend/girlfriend. Honestly, when Jan and me broke up, I would sleep every afternoon after school and would be in bed at 8 pm. And I had quite nightmares, so I would suggest music and just a pet, because they gave you the not-alone feeling.

Write a story. 
I honestly write to feel better. I don't just write blog, I wrote numerous diaries and I would write stories (I have a huge collection of my 'novels' haha). It will help you state the problem. I sometimes get sad for no reason or maybe I don't even know how to feel and at that times I try to write and I try to find perfect words to describe how I feel and it helps me even find the problem of my stress and sadness.


Great music. Dance.
Jake Bugg showed me that I can relax by listening to his voice. Also George Ezra. I usually have a different taste in music, but when I am moody, I like to listen to strange and in my opinion the best kind of voices and those two are just my top two examples. Don't listen to rap. HAHA, rap is what I dig and it doesn't help me getting happy most of the time. I like to put on headphones and just lie for a few songs and be calm and then I like to dance to some dancing songs. It really sets the mood for me. I am a terrible dancer and in the end I just end up laughing at my own moves.

Lemon. Cinnamon & Apple. Baked cookies. 
Get a great smell. When I am feeling hopeless I would light a candle or go bake some cookies. Who am I kidding, I would always have candles in my room. They just work magic when it comes to mood.

Kiss. All the time.
This might not be for the single people (or could it?, Don't let me tell you what to do haha), but as I am not single, I can tell you that kissing makes me super relaxed and even cuddling or taking control helps with stress or even depression. Besides, kiss your boy as much as you can. That’s one of the best parts of being with someone. Show them the love, don't be old and grumpy.

Cosy socks. Pajamas. Beanies.
Get super cosy. Jump in the shower to feel fresh and just put on the best cosy clothes that you can find in your wardrobe and you will instantly feel great.

Coffee. Green Tea. Any kind of tea. 
I already regret promoting you all this 'bad' things, but I can't really help it. They really work for me. The whole preparation already relaxes me, not to mention that I love the taste and that I am an addict.

Get up.
That doesn't work for me at all, but I know it works for most of you. Get up. Do yoga. Go for a run. Sport. It will help you get your mind of the problem (I guess). I just end up stressed even more. But when I was training and when I was sporting every day for hours, I don't remember being sad for anything really.
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torek, 03. november 2015

DOGS

torek, 03. november 2015

DOGS

I have a boxer Thor, as I am sure that you know already. He is treated with love and he actually is a great dog. He behaves and does tricks and is calm and playful and basically the dream dog. He is not like that because he was born that way, he was trained that way. He didn't just learn things by himself. Everything he does is the product of me spending time with him and sometimes trying to teach him a single simple trick for hours. He behaves because he had been told to, and I spend numerous hours training him to do so. If your dog doesn't behave well or is violent or doesn't want to sit on your command, that is not his fault, but it is yours. Some dogs hate working or tend to spend more time learning one thing than others, but you can train your dog. Some dogs just take more time than others. For example I have a friend, who spends every second with her dog and her dog is amazing. She behaves like an angel, truly. But that is because she spends time with her and puts effort and money in her. And I also know a girl, who has a dog for some kind of an accessory, when she has time. And her dog is just violent and bad and all she does is getting mad at him, when nothing he does bad is his fault. Well, you get what I am saying. You reflect on your dog. 

If you can't control your dog, don't just assume that you can just take 5 minutes and he will behave. Time changes everybody. If having a dog in a cage 20 years ago was a must-have, it is not so now. It is a responsibility.

Also, I have a huge problem with people who train their dogs as guards. You don't do that. Because he will eventually loose his mind and attack someone or something. Maybe by accident. Yes, it is great that you have a protective dog and he wouldn't let people hurt you, but it ends here. I just loose my shit when I get somewhere and 10 dogs are barking at me, when I am just walking down the street, looking as they are going to eat me. We are moving away from Ljubljana and I will have just a little fence away from people who have a dog like that, who is just aggressive. Imagine if that dog got to face my lovely and calm dog, which never got into a fight and doesn't even know why dogs are acting like that. It is devastating to even think that.



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