četrtek, 15. december 2016

I MADE YOU A PLAYLIST

četrtek, 15. december 2016

I MADE YOU A PLAYLIST

People don't really talk about anything important anymore. All they talk about is unimportant irrelevant things that don't even make sense anymore. And all the grown ups always tell us that we are stupid, that we don't really know life, that we are addicted to technology.And I agree to some point. We don't talk about important things anymore with each other. Hell, I don't talk about it with anybody. All I do is write it down, but sometimes I won't even share it. How stupid! Well, I might not always tell you the right thing and I might give you the worst advice, but what I am good at is making an easier path for you. I talk in riddles so much, even I am sometimes impressed with the fact that you actually get me. But by that I mean that I might not give you a full advice on how to do life, but I will give you a suggestion for a great movie and a great song and meaningful artsy stuff and you will watch it and get your own opinion on it and will be able to make your own choices.

That is the only reason I always tell you which movie is really worth watching and that is the only reason why I make posts exclusively about music suggestions. If I wanted to be original, I would never share them with you, but I do want to make an impact, I do wish you all the best. I always imagined that my job as a blogger was to make you all my best friends, to connect with you on a personal level, to tell you something new, something you didn't know already. To tell you something important. That is why I decided to make a playlist of things that made an impact on me - good or bad, so if you want to keep up with it here is the link.


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sreda, 14. december 2016

SAM GREŠ!

sreda, 14. december 2016

SAM GREŠ!

SAM GREŠ IS THE NEW YOLO

Do you remember when that YOLO word was popular as hell and we all used it but hated ourselves cuz it was so annoying? Who even started that? Well, as much as we hated it, I think that the idea of being daring and just do stuff because life is too short was the best idea on the planet. Think about it - would you really do half of the stuff if you wouldn't shout yolo while doing it? I don't think so. Sooner or later yolo was bound to come out of style, but the idea was so great we couldn't just let it go forever. Then we met Nejc, who was surprisingly always in for crazy ideas, he would use the phrase SAM GREŠ, which is technically a mix of two all known ''motivational'' sentences: just do it and go.

It didn't take long before we all started using it. And let me tell you, it is the best invention on the planet. I am the kind of person who is uncomfortable a lot, because I don't want to do new things, I am fine with repeating old, known things but when it comes to new, thats when I just shut down. So I said sam greš a lot lately and did some pretty badass things. Not to mention how our gang started using it non stop, Jaka even got the job, because of it, he just said to himself sam greš and voila.

”Don't ask yourself what the world needs. Ask yourself what makes you come alive and then go do that. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.” - Howard Thurman 

The difference between YOLO and SAM GREŠ is that yolo was always to do stupid things because they were fun, but sam greš is actually to get out of your comfort zone. It could be different to everyone, could even be for irresponsible things, but its about chasing opportunities, going on trips, doing something crazy you would never do, take a chance on someone or something, it is about all the things that help you grow. And let me tell you, 2016 was one hell of a year to grow.
When someone hears a word grow, they always think about being successful or college or money or new stuff that we bought, but to be honest, it is not about that at all. Because if we look at how my year went, you will say I am a failure. My bank account is constantly - and I am completely failing archaeology, because I hate it level 1000. But I never felt so alive, so present and so lucky. We went to Poland, I got quite a following, I became more successful in a year than all previous 4 years together, I met more people than ever, I even met the hooman for me, I got some pretty badass goals and I could continue on writing about it, but you do get the point of growing, right? It is finding yourself and being happy.

Stay super duper :) It's good to be back. Love you!
➳ Evs

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sreda, 16. november 2016

1 YEAR OF HAPPINESS

sreda, 16. november 2016

1 YEAR OF HAPPINESS

We are celebrating 1 year anniversary since I created Fire Meet Gasoline and turned a new page of my life. The funny part about this whole celebration is that I am not just thankful for all the amazing people that helped me get through though times, but am also super thankful for people who did the most damage in my life.


This is not a sad post, this is me happy.

First of all I would like to thank Anja, Pina and Fila. When I was having the worst time of my life, you kinda asked zero questions, you just were there. And most of all I am so thankful that you inspire me all the time. That you give me all the best ideas and you always know what to say. I already wrote an appreciation post for ya'll. You can read it if you want here. I love you all so much!


I would finally like to thank this one super cool dude. You don't know him, because I don't write about him ever, because I got a pretty hard lesson of how much of my personal life should I really share online, but since my new motto is fuck it, I would like to officially show off my better half. My best friend and my partner in dissing and partner in crimes - Nejc. You are awesome. Without you I would probably still be stuck somewhere where I was not destined to be, but you kinda stole my heart from the moment you told me how you see the world. Primarily you are my best friend and my world wouldn't be the same without you. The one thing I am most thankful is how you showed me what it really means to live your life to the fullest and how to make challenges possible. You are always in when I have crazy ideas and you always support me and give me motivation when I need it. When I said 'stole my heart' I meant that I was super lost before you, and now it feels like I never even was. Honestly, I feel so happy all the time, its almost annoying... All because of you, my man. You are super duper. Love you! Thanks for stalking me.


Special thanks to the funniest creatures on the planet I call my family. Moth, you kinda didn't even let me be sad and I was kinda mad at first, but then I realised that life is to short to not be happy. And my sister, thanks for being there for me all the time. You are so annoying, but you are the best person in my life. And to Miloš and Mila and the rest of the fam. I love you so darn much. Thanks for supporting me.


And mostly I am thankful for my ex. You showed me so much, you made me realise things no body will ever make me realise again. I am so much bigger than you. Thats sounds so rude, but because of you I got my goals back, which you sucked out of me. And they are bigger and better. But if you wouldn't, I wouldn't be the girl I am. So, yes, you did break me into million pieces, you did break my heart, it was super hard, it was super painful, I thought that I was not going to make it, but I did. I picked myself up and rebuild my life. And today I am really happy and I can't feel a single thing when I hear your name. I am so happy you broke my heart, because it would really suck if you would still be sucking the life out of me. Good job boi, points to you! Also thanks to the guy who tried to come back in my life and changed his mind to be with a ''better'' girl. Thanks for not coming back.


This year I managed to do even more exciting things with Thor, I love Summer 2016, best Summer so far. I met some of the loveliest people. I would just also like to mention these guys: Jaka, Nina, Lana, Nika, Monika and all other dogs-related people. You are super great. Big changes in a year. I moved. Twice. This time for good. To a place I thought I was going to hate, but somehow I kinda dig it. Well, it surely has nothing to do with Nejc being 5 minutes of walking away, nope, not at all. Praise all the trips I had. Especially Poland. Poland was just amazing. It felt like I could do this forever. And all the Summer road trips. Learning how to properly use my camera. Buying Macbook, getting two new phones. Finishing high school and starting university. Yes, it was a great year. I can't complain. Such a big and important year. I feel like when I will be old I will look back and think about year '16 and be like... oh man, what a good year that was. 


☺everything is going to be super duper. ☺
⟶ love, Eva.
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petek, 11. november 2016

WHAT WAS IT LIKE TO LEAVE ME?

petek, 11. november 2016

WHAT WAS IT LIKE TO LEAVE ME?

I won't be like you.


There is nothing to say. When I look at you, all the words loose meaning. When you hurt me, all the emotions went somewhere deep inside my body, I say nothing, but I am dying inside.

Twice a year you come to pick us, but I hate every hello, because with you hello always means goodbye. And I don't understand, and I hate to ask but what was it like to leave me?

After realisations like this one, I stop and think. Was is always me? Was I the reason all the bad things happened to me? Is it because I am your daughter? Because you are what you create. That would explain a whole lotta things. I won't be like you! I will fight and I will kick and scream, but I would rather die than not try and stop this genes. When I do stupid things, I see you in me and it scares me to death. When I do bad things, he looks at me the same way like I look at you. I won't be like you! Can you stop this? Can you just stop being something you were born to be?

It always ends too soon. Its all your fault. The fact that I don't let anyone in, not really, is your fault. You just left. And now I am doing the exact same thing to this one guy, who means the world to me. You didn't say goodbye, you didn't give me a reason, you just did the easy thing. You can't stop DNA.  I have too much you inside me, to do better. There are situations when I do the right thing, but as soon as things get out of control, I panic and I do what I always do. I leave. I would rather break myself than admit to others that I love them.

I hate to see you as a monster, but you ruined me. So hard, I tried so hard, to puzzle myself back together, and then you came and ruin everything for me again. And again. And you want to do it again. There is no way, I'll ever let you back in, no way I will every let you brake me again. I am just so scared. I won't be like you! I don't want to be in pain. I don't want to be miserable. I wish I couldn't feel a damn thing. Sometimes to stay alive you gotta kill your mind. Maybe this is November talking, but I am just so tired.

All this moving away and the fact that I am still not sure about my University and my dad and the not talking brings out the worst in me. Maybe I need a break. Maybe I don't, I am just asking you to understand, that this is a stressful time for me. Knowing myself, there are two options: that I will either blog like crazy or not blog at all. But you can follow my life on instagram (@epremk). I hope you understand. But, I don't know how to do this, I don't know how to be this person.

I am surrounding myself with friends and family right now and I am being productive and planing big exciting projects for you guys, so I think I will be just fine.
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ponedeljek, 24. oktober 2016

I WOULD GO CRAZY IF YOU WEREN'T WITH ME.

ponedeljek, 24. oktober 2016

I WOULD GO CRAZY IF YOU WEREN'T WITH ME.

Shoutout to my friends, who are so much bigger than all the words I know and all the words that I am able to say.

Without you, I'd be a whole lotta lost, a whole lotta different and a whole lotta dumber haha. I am the girl in our gang, who is the dumbest, so yeah, you all kinda make me less stupid, I guess. Well, at least I didn't wrote on a test that Australian biggest ocean attraction is underwater volcano. Oh snap. Please don't kill me. I am 100% sure that if there was a situation where a killer would hold us at gunpoint and I would have to choose between releasing you or me, I would pick you instantly. You saved me so many times, I lost counting. 

Each and every one of you made me a better person in a different way. One of you is always making sure that I am trying my hardest and that I am always being my best, and mostly that I deserve better. And she always tells me if I am being crazy and if I am being a bitch or careless or if I take too many selfies haha or if I don't blog enough or if I am capable of better things. You are cool, you are. I don't think I'd be half as cool as I am if you wouldn't believe in me. You are kinda the best partner in everything, not just crimes, I have and we don't have to spend every aching moment together for me to love you. Yes, I love you, deal with it blondie. You make my life so much better. And because of you, it is already pretty great on its own. Then there is this dude, who is the weirdest and strangest person and I must say that if I would spend my lifetime trying to understand how you turned out to be this awesome, I would still not get it. If I could give someone the credit of all my big smart decisions, I am giving credits to you. Frankly, I think that if there wasn't for you, I'd still be dating assholes and I'd be pretty lost. Thanks for all the things you teach me every single day and thanks for talking to me when I need you or when you go out for a coffee with me when I am not my best and thanks for making sure I am okay. Damn, you are so cool. More than you know. And then there is this girly, who gives me awesome free stuff to make me happy haha, I just had to make this statement, because I love free stuff. And I love you. Thanks for letting me stay in your home and thanks for feeding me and letting me be a part of your life. I am so glad to be in your life. Thanks for tagging me under lama pictures haha, deeply appreciated. I am just going to tell you this real quick, because I don't think you know, but even at your worst, I never stop believing in you. I was rooting for you and you did not let me down, because you are super smart and when there is a crucial moment, you are strong enough to do the right thing. And whenever you will feel lost, you always have us. 

Whatever I do, whoever I become, no matter where I go, you can always, 100%, count on me. I will be there for you, I will come to Ljubljana from Mengeš, from Grosuplje, from freaking New York, I will love the heck out of you. And I will put you first, because you are first. You are bigger friends to me than you realise and you are so important. And because of you I am truly happy and I hope I make you half as happy as you make me. How did I get so lucky, I don't know, but you are crazy. If you weren't we would not be friends. I love you, all of you! Thank you so much!
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torek, 11. oktober 2016

MY NEW VIDEO

torek, 11. oktober 2016

MY NEW VIDEO

Yes, I know, it is nothing special, give me a break. I made a really great one with copyrighted music and it got blocked in so many countries, so this is better than nothing. Okay, Eva loves you! Enjoy!

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nedelja, 09. oktober 2016

BE A GIRL WITH A LOT OF UNIVERSE IN YOU.

nedelja, 09. oktober 2016

BE A GIRL WITH A LOT OF UNIVERSE IN YOU.

Song suggestion of the freaking year: Down With Webster - Your Man

If you know me personally, you already know that I am not the girl who would stay home and do nothing all day. Not a long time ago I was, I am not gonna lie, but life kinda kicked me hard in the butt and my universe went crazy and just pushed me to do better. Just a quick disclaimer, I am not saying that my life is better than yours, I am just gonna express the way I feel about life and the way I want every single one of you to feel. 

We are not all made to do the same things, I know that. If I put it like this: we don't have the same interests and we don't have same desires and goals, which is what make the world function, our differences. So, if I am telling you to go out there, inspire others and make someone happy that could mean so many different things. My purpose, and I knew that from the very start of my existence, is to make people laugh with making fun of myself, to create things and products that will inspire others and to be the person in the gang who will share a whole lotta sparkles and have a whole lotta universe in me. You could be completely different, but the important thing is to know how to be happy. Know what makes you happy and do it as much as you can. 

Other people can make you so incredibly happy and thats okay, but nobody can make you happy if you don't know how to be happy yourself. So, maybe take time to really explore who you are and who you can be. This 'gap year' that I had, turned out to be a complete disaster, but I think that I discovered what makes me happy and I think that if I wouldn't have this year off, I would loose my mind and just be same old sad little girl, who I am not destined to be. I can tell you so much about how to deal with depression and manic state and diagnoses and all the things that I thought were incurable, but they are not. You just need to believe and make yourself happy. Discover a whole new universe in you. Get that sparkle back into your eyes, smile with eyes, which reflect who you really are. 
Having universe inside you sound so Disney, but imagine that, you could be anything you want to be. If you want you can turn invisible, you are just to scared and dumb (yes, I just called you dumb, sorry about that) to chase that goal. You can be a hell of a great doctor or magician (please don't be creepy magician, eva no-likey) or hell of a great mother, you can be anything you put your heart and soul into. Throw kindness around like confetti. Be crazy, and people will accept you and love you. I met someone really freaking fantastic some time ago, it is hard to explain, this person is so cool and so funny and so motivational and everything, that it automatically made me do better, he just inspired me to lead a better life, to have a goal to move away again (but not to run away, like I always do, but just for the purpose to be happy), to do what I want, because it feels right to me and that it is okay if I screw things up from time to time. Sometimes you meet just the right people and it all makes sense and they always push you do be the best version of yourself. It is so nice. 


I just decided to put a list of things you need to try if you don't know where to start with all this hustling and being the best you can possibly be and just make the best out of the day:

· Check out GaryVee on Youtube (to get inspired)
· Take time out. Don't listen to your mom when she tells you that its a bad idea. If you feel that it is the right thing to do, just do it.
· Wake up early in the morning and do all the things you need to do, so you will have time to do better things throughout the day.
· Laughing is the best exercise.
· Drink a lot of tea and coffee and just something warm, that will make you feel happy.
· Make plans with friends.
· Watch an episode of How I Met Your Mother and be impressed with Marshall's happiness.
· Create a new happy Youtube playlist.
· Check Out Vessel from Twenty One Pilots (Listen to: Oh, Ms Believer, Migraine, Ride..)
· Nights are not for sleeping, whoever told you that is stupid. At night we work and we eat Guarana and brain storm. We team!
· Don't let people take you for granted, ever. If you make something nice and they don't appreciate it, just ignore them or block them. Its okay if you get rid of people who weight you down and not see that you try for them.
· Buy things that make you happy, or save money for trips and travel and explore and see and be great and smart.
· Discover yourself.

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nedelja, 02. oktober 2016

BAD HABIT

nedelja, 02. oktober 2016

BAD HABIT

You got yourself a bad habit.

Let's talk boys today, okay? Okay!

Girls who chase guys are just crazy in my opinion. Don't understand me wrong, there is nothing wrong if you text him first and if you say nice things, but being the only one who makes a relationship work is eventually going to not work for you. And I am just saying that, because you can't see it, no girl, who is that deep into it, can see it and you don't deserve to be with someone who just sits and waits for you to do your thing. It might take you a few years to figure that out and by then it will be too late, because you will spend so much time for something that didn't work in the beginning, you just couldn't see it. It has to be mutual.
Bad habit is what I call it. Because honey, I promise you, if he will want to talk to you, he will call you and if he will want to see you, he will show up. If he will want to take you somewhere or make you feel good and special, he will do it, because he wants to do it. If he doesn't, then maybe you should consider if your love and time are worth it. Don't beg for his attention, because then you'll make a habit out of it and in a few years you will still be stuck with this habit and you will be a girl who has to beg for the rest of her life, and I just think that you deserve better.

Girls fall in love too quickly. You can't just fall in love with someone who has same interests as you do or with someone who looks nice and things like that. Because then you realise that he is just not what you want him to be and you are already in love and you basically go crazy because of it. It is all going so fast I can't even keep up with all of you. Why is it so hard for you to first be friends and talk to him for more than two minutes and see how he works when he is under pressure, or how he reacts to sad or messy situations. How he makes his tea and what is he thinking at 4 in the morning. You have to really get to know a person to be in love, you can't just say kaboom I am in love. Maybe it is just me, but I am really trying hard to stay away from difficult situations.
Some people just fall in love to feel something and it breaks my heart. You have to love yourself first and be able to make yourself happy, without any help. Why do you think that if you can't be happy right now, that some guy will come and make you happy or even worse... that he will save you? No, you have to save yourself. It doesn't matter what it takes, I don't care - go to the doctor, but fix yourself up. You gotta. Personally, what my problem is haha that is gonna sound so strange, but when I felt like that was it - that I love someone, I got so nervous and so afraid, I would just start panicking and walking away and I got this sick feeling all over my body. It felt like my body was resisting love so hard haha I swear I almost puked in the sink. Sounds so romantic, doesn't it. Maybe I am just too afraid to fall in love. 

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sobota, 01. oktober 2016

THE 'no problem' GIRL

sobota, 01. oktober 2016

THE 'no problem' GIRL

In the last year I became the most chill person you could imagine. It wasn't scars or what happened to me in November, it is all just a big idea on how to live your life to the fullest. Achieving that, I had to go through phases like: learning to let certain people and things go, not being the stubborn little girlie, like you all know I am and always forgiving where there is worth forgiving, asap.


And I really wanted to take time and speak about what being the 'no problem' girl really is like. If there is a problem, I just don't see the point in being mad at someone for not being the way you imagined. If I give you an example; you expect a person would do something like, tell you something important and when they don't, you feel a bit empty and just not good. And here is what I do now, I will say - no problem. Nothing more. Expecting people to be perfect and to always do the right thing, will sooner or later hurt you. There are of course things that you should never let people do to you and just not say that you're good with it.

Never let people treat you bad. Be like me and just delete them from your life. If they don't think that you are enough, why would you even waste your time proving them wrong? Just say fuck it and find people who will go an extra mile for you. 

Quiet is difficult for me right now, the only way I can actually breathe is just to fill my life with the noise. That sounds so dramatic and maybe it is, but being me and living with the things I live now, just made me the person to do bad things and to surround myself with bad people and just loud things that can stop making me feel like it is all quiet. So, being the no-problem-girl sometimes means I have to really work hard in my head to be okay with the fact that people treat me okay. And all this things like opening up, being girly and especially trusting someone.

It takes a lot of courage and a lot of time and a lot of heart breaks for me to just say how I feel and there is 80% chance that I won't show you any emotions if you hurt me. Because it took me such a great deal to do those things for someone and if you let me down on that, you are, sooner or later, out. Gosh, I sound like a proper girl right now hah.

I am constantly torn between being good and loving great people and just going for the old, bad habits. I know what you are thinking... It is not that hard to do the right thing - well, it is to me. Because if I am hurt I think about how I can mess something up to show people they don't know me at all and just give them a reason to piss off. 

Man, I swear to god, it is not as hard to understand as it is to say, but long story short, if you are a great guy, but you don't meet my expectations, there are only small amounts of my ”no problems” before I shut you out and before I make something stupid to prove you that you don't know me at all, and you never will. And whenever I do something stupid, I normally want people to stay, but I act like I don't, because how can you expect that someone would stay if you hurt them back? It is funny, but if you treat me bad, I always come back. There is a great line from a book called The Perks of Being a Wallflower: we expect the love we think we deserve. And sometimes my bars are set to just the 'hurt me and leave me' and maybe it is because I never really thought that I deserve to be loved, I don't know. And I do want to change that, I do. So, maybe by saying it out loud first will do something and make me change a little. 
You are not Fiona (from Shameless) or Lenny (from The Royals) or Effy (from Skins) or whoever, you are you. And if you meet someone who is cool and great and makes you feel like life is worth it, then maybe you should let them love you, even if its hard. But everyone deserves to be happy and loved. You are not an exception. HAHA, I just read on weheartit: everyone deserves a nice man, who thinks you're dope and texts you back. Who thinks you're funny and buys you tacos. Word! Just accept the fact that you don't need negativity and you don't have to get heart broken. 
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ponedeljek, 26. september 2016

SHE IS A DISASTER!

ponedeljek, 26. september 2016

SHE IS A DISASTER!

So many people want me to fail and so many want to see me suffer and just be down. And I am really sorry, but I am going to make this really hard for you. People are allowed to suffer, you know that right? There are so many bad things that made me the way I am. So many labels covering my eyes. You know like those pictures where there is a black line covering someones eyes and then there is a word written on it, like 'depressed', 'lonely', 'gay' or something like that. Well, I have loads of labels, and sometimes I really feel down about it. And that is okay.

I was not planed. I was not wanted. My dad never really cared to the point that he would make an effort in any way and my supposedly soul mate left me because I was not smart enough. See how many labels are mentioned here already? Quite a lot and I could continue, but to be honest... I am not defined with those labels. Bad things that happened to me don't tell anything about me but that I survived them and that they made me tougher as a person.



If you want to make me sad with comments or if you are in any way jealous with what I do and who I am, I can assure you that the only effect you give is me looking at you differently. You don't bring me down, 90% of the time, but you make me question about you. About your kindness, about your personality and I am confused, because I don't understand where are you coming from. I could sit here for days and tell you stories about my life that would make you feel empty inside, but I am not going to do it, because life is not about hard times. It is about turning hard times to great ones. And living life to the fullest. So many people are just sitting there and judging my decisions and trying to make me quit and stuff like that. One thing I am most annoyed with is definitely shipping me with my ex. Are you crazy people? How can you ship me with someone who left me and didn't come back? You don't understand, I made the decision to be happy instead of miserable and you ship me with my worst self? No. You have to understand that.

Being here and realising that loving yourself first and just being happy is the most important thing. And whenever I am talking to any of you, I try to tell you that, because you don't believe in yourself enough. And that hurts me. Sometimes I should take my own advice, I know, but lately I have been really happy. Happier than ever. And I am sick of people treating me like I am here to be judged, because I am not. You can judge me if you want, but I promise you that it doesn't hurt. At all. It hurts you more.

Never been more grateful for anything more than all the people that fight for me and for people who talk to me everyday because they think I am interesting. And for special someone who asks me how I am feeling and what I am doing. It is so simple, but so important. Truly happy that I have so many great friends who are there for me. :) So, here is the deal, you can try to bring me down, but you won't succeed. Ever.

Sincerely,
Eva the disaster.
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ponedeljek, 19. september 2016

MAN CRUSH MONDAY episode 1

ponedeljek, 19. september 2016

MAN CRUSH MONDAY episode 1

REMI MALEK


Okay, yeah I found a perfect day to post about him, because he just won an Emmy for best drama actor in Mr. Robot.

The first time I saw Remi on TV was when I saw Need For Speed and immediately I got a feeling that he is a really cool guy. He has that special something on him, I think its the eyes, they are really nice. But the nicest thing about this guy is his behind, I am sorry but its true haha, just watch Need For Speed, you will understand.

Currently I am binge watching Mr. Robot and the fact that I got an urge to start learning about how to hack into someones computer is just a great proof that it is a great TV series, because it makes you feel like you want to be part of it.

I just googled Rami Malek Need For Speed naked and my mom came into my room, and she said nothing, she just left. Okay I would love to post his butt here, but since there are a lot of little kids reading my blog, I am just going to post this awesome picture of him.


Anyway, Rami is really talented, that I can say, and if I may command you to watch something, you should really watch Mr. Robot. It is one hell of a TV series and it makes you think about everything. Its a good kind of think. Even if its not a very happy Tv show.

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Q&A

Q&A

I am really sorry for my sarcastic answers. Sarcasm is my number one defence. Anyway, thank you for questions and I am sorry if your question won't be featured in this blog, I sometimes forget them and it has been a long time since my last Q&A and some of them were not even questions. Okay, let's get to it then, shall we?! :)

How many animals do you have now?
- My dog Thor and three tortoises.

Why did you delete so many blog posts?
- Hmm, why do you think I did it? Okay, I will answer this. I deleted it, because three years of my life were not revolving around me, but someone else, and I just hated that I wasted so much time writing them for someone who didn't deserve it, when I could be writing about important things and work on myself and my life.

Why did you stop posting 'song of the day/week'?
- Errm, not sure. I can bring that back, if you want.

Where do you get your inspiration for blogging and making stories?
- Honestly, I scroll We Heart It a lot and I am a Youtube queen and 9gag is my second life. But my stories are just based on my day and whats going on in my mind.

Are you a good or a bad girl? 
- Who's your mommy? Haha sorry

Which blogpost is your favourite?
- Oh, hmm.. I would say that either 'Cause I don't belong in a world where we don't end up together. I don't or maybe even Tragedy. That is really hard for me to answer because I am of course going to pick two of the most heartbreaking posts, because I was really heart broken and writing was hard and I feel like that this two posts were my breaking points if I was going to quit blog or not. But my number one post was always My favourite two years - it was the most popular one and I literally gave my heart and soul into it, but I made it private. 

Do you think you are funny with your posts? You are not
- Yes. I mean... sometimes I don't want to be funny, but yeah.

Are your eyes fake? 
- Sure.

What are pros and cons of blogging? 
- pros: meeting fellow bloggers, getting your thoughts out, you meet some really lovely followers, you really get a backbone, making an impact on someone, getting opportunities that I would never get if I wasn't a blogger, money - which is not a reason to start blogging, but it sure helps.
-cons: you get insulted on a daily basis, sometimes people use you because they think that they will profit with you (they don't, trust me), you can say something and it sounds wrong to someone and then you are the bad guy, I would say that if you are angry and write about it and it can do some damage. 

Are you in love? & Dated anyone this year?
- Haha, well love is such a scary word, no. I am not in love, but I like someone.
- Nope.

Why archaeology?
- Why not? I like being dirty haha that sounds wrong. Whats up with me today. Errm, probably because it is as close to a scientist that I am able to get without actually studying bio, chem or physics (but I guess I will study all three hah). And as simple as it is - I really like it.

Have you heard 21 pilots Cancer song?
- Duuh! Twenty One Pilots is my life.

Pick one famous guy for you.
- HAHAHA funny joke. 
- Jasper Frost
- Lip Gallagher
- Joe Cole
- Marshall Eriksen
- Robert Sheehan
- Tyler Joseph
- James Cook
- Tom Harlock
- Joey Kidney
- Brendon Urie & his wife
- I'll stop, but I have more.

Okay, thats it for today!
Love,
-Evs
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sreda, 14. september 2016

MY SUMMER

sreda, 14. september 2016

MY SUMMER

What I really wanted to blog about is my Summer. It was my first alone Summer in a while, but it was the best one so far. It started simple and exciting. My acceptance to University of Ljubljana and to be honest, I was expecting to be accepted, but it was still a great Summer start. It meant more to me than anything, because I really wanted to go since I am already a year behind my plans. Then something unexpected happened, I started supping. That soon became my number one thing to do and I bought Thor a Ruffwear Float Coat and we became supping buddies. Thor was afraid of water and I think that now he is almost used to it and goes inside on his own.


I went to Montenegro, to shoot videos for my Summer video, which will be uploaded to my Youtube channel next week and I am super excited for you to see it. I think you will be pleased. One big thing that happened is definitely my reunion with Nala, which went well I would say. She is just not my type of dog anymore to be honest. Also, this Summer I met some of the loveliest people on the planet. Dog and no-dog related people. Shoutout to all of you, because you really are amazing and you definitely made my Summer so super mega great. 


Can't even try to count the hours I spent outside on walks and adventures. Also, I don't remember when I ever did so much for myself than this year. I started doing Instagram stories (@epremk) and I started documenting things and I finally started editing videos and I got over so many negative people and events that weighted me down. Don't even let me tell you how much ice cream I ate. Not to mention how much Snickers ice cream changed my life haha. 


The big decision for me was to stop eating meat and take care of myself more. Yes, I am talking about you rheumatism. You sneaky disease. Also I went on a fruit/vegetable based diet with my friend, anyway, starting to take care of my health more. I used to hate water, could not drink it, because to me it tasted bad and now I got used to it and I drink at least 2l water per day, but I usually drink more than that. 


The biggest project so far is of course building our new house. Yes, you got the news here first, I am moving to Menges in 4 weeks. Around October 10th and we will have a fancy bathroom that I chose and I am still trying to find a perfect colour for my walls (my room). I am kinda into yellow, which I know I told you that is the colour I hate the most. Lately I have grown to like yellow, mainly because I have a pretty yellow rain coat and cute yellow sweater hah. Imagine vintage yellow with white polka dots. That sounds pretty. I stopped writing journal. That hit you hard right? Hah, you didn't even know I had a journal. Well, I decided to stop writing about my past days and just start writing about my future. So, me and Anja bought some very lovely notebooks and we are creating and defining what we really want and how to achieve it.


Movies and Tv series. That is something we have to discuss. Number one obsession was of course Suicide Squad. But main recommendations for you to watch are: movies - Revolutionary Road, A Long Way Down, Need For Speed and Love Me If You Dare. Tv series - Shameless US, The Royals, Mr. Robot, The Fosters and Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. (damn, emotional ride for AOS fans)


The food I ate the most this Summer is salted mashed avocado on bread and then egg on top. Also, Snickers ice cream as mentioned, salad and just a lot of watermelon.


I would really like to share this with all of you. Today I went to the doctor, to take some samples of my blood, so that then can test it and see how is my rheumatism doing. And if you didn't know already, I am horribly afraid of needles. SO, because now I am an adult, I had a whole preparation on how am I going to do it and I downloaded some really cool music and put my headphones on and I went inside on my own (without my mom, don't judge me you bastards, you go with your mom too, I know your kind:) I was practising my breathing, because my main problem with the whole thing is that I stop breathing and I get in a some weird shock and my veins will stop circulating blood and nothing will come out. So, the problem with this is my breathing. I am so afraid of it, I can't breathe. And today I did it myself and I managed to get two injections. Well, three people held me down but it was progress, I am really really brave and I think you should be proud of me. Thank you :)


Also, this Summer I really got to appreciate how certain music albums can change your whole mood and boost it up. If you want something really Summer-ish to listen, just listen to Jake Millers new album. I promise you, you can never regret listening to his amazing music. The biggest smile that I got this Summer was when Heathens was leaked and I heard it for the first time and I loved it so much I couldn't stop playing it. Well, yesterday Twenty One Pilots released Cancer, which is a cover from My Chemical Romance. And I can't breathe because it is so good, I don't want to go to sleep, because I want to listen to it non-stop. I am in love with it. Its is love. It is bigger than like.


My Summer was amazing, at first I thought that I was going to miss that trips that I took every year for a week and made videos about them. But it was alright. I don't need that to be happy and I don't need stupid people who would treat me bad, to survive, I am actually better off. And this Summer is really a good example and proof that I can honestly be happy again without him. And I am. I am happy, which is all that counts and matters. :) Love from Evs and we will see eachother very soon. Bye :)
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sobota, 10. september 2016

HAPPY MIND. HAPPY LIFE.

sobota, 10. september 2016

HAPPY MIND. HAPPY LIFE.

I have been inspired. My life has a whole new meaning and all I want to do is achieve my life goals and my dreams. One day it just hit me. I just had to do something bigger with my life. Something that I always wanted and something to make me the person I am destined to be. What I did was start small and I bough a notebook. Because I didn't really have defined plans and dreams, I started just by writing things I wanted down. And then it just happened. Somehow I end up writing goals and wishes and things to buy and tips&tricks and inspirations and people I want to work with and companies I admire and would love to connect with them for you guys and more. My life became more organised than what it was before. If you know me, you surely know that I am not random, I don't just stay in bed all day and do nothing, I have to create and put energy to things that I love. And for a moment there, I kinda lost myself and being on the right path again makes me so incredibly happy. So, now I am doing the things that I wrote down.


It is hard for me to understand people without goals in life. Sometimes I meet someone and they don't even know what they want to study and I find that hard to understand. Because I have goals so big, it makes me uncomfortable to tell them to small-minded people. If you want to be happy and successful, you have to loose the negative people in your life. And sometimes that could mean loosing a lot of people. But it is much better to be alone and feel like a success than to be in a relationship and feel like a failure all the time. And I know that I can achieve so much. 


The one person who truly inspires me so much every day is Gary Vaynerchuk aka Garyvee aka Dailyvee. I have to thank Anja for showing him to me, Anja you da best! He is keeping it real. Honestly, if you want to get your shit together and if you don't know how to start, just watch his videos. The key to what you should do is to just start. Create. Document. Do it. Ever since I started watching his motivational speeches, I just somehow created more than ever. One of the latest things I did is to start posting daily stories on my Instagram. By the way, if you want to follow me and basically if you want to see how my days are usually going, you should just follow me on Instagram. My username is @epremk. Also, because I am feeling so great I am always looking for great opportunities, I am talking to a few amazing people, who will make some dreams come true for my blog. 


Surrounding with people who will push me to do better was the best thing I have ever done. And letting go of those who weighted me down was the hardest, but I am so glad I did it. Sometimes I will fail and sometimes I will be let down, but I won't give up and I will try and try again and again and in the end I will succeed and I know that because it is the only thing I can count on. On me to make good decisions. 


The only thing I am afraid of is to plan it too much and not just going for it. But, I think that I am on the right path and I have Anja and Fila, who are so supportive of everything I do, so I think that we are going to do amazing things in life. Feel free to join me on my path. I have great plans for this blog and I think you will be pleased. 
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ponedeljek, 05. september 2016

HOW TO BLOG LIKE A PRO

ponedeljek, 05. september 2016

HOW TO BLOG LIKE A PRO

Today I am going to share some of my tips and tricks on how to blog like a professional, which I am not, I just like to pretend.


1.
The Desk
You will have to invest and really buy a good desk that you think its perfect for blogging. Before I had this desk, I had a really big one and I just couldn't blog on that big surface, don't ask why - because there is a complex theory of my stupid brain behind it, so I blogged on my bed. It kinda worked for me - blogging on bed, but it surely can't be compared to this desk. If you like a lot of space, buy a big desk and if you are like me, just buy a small one. Mine is from Ikea and I bought two of them for each home, because I am in love with it. The only problem with this particular desk is that if you have a big computer, not laptop, you will probably not be able to put it on, because it has a roof. But it takes little space and it looks cute and vintage. Vintage is so my style. I can only cry when I think about my future house.


2.
Ideas and brainstorming 
Being notebook-obsessed person, it is only right to plan and brainstorm before I actually write something that a lot of people will read. But to be completely honest here, when I am feeling down, I usually don't, I just write. But a lot of times, thats not the case. I have at least 10 notebooks to write things down. This one is just my newest favourite member. If I can tell you something about how to choose a perfect planner or notebook, I must mention that the key in picking one is thick pages. Of course it has to be beautiful and all, but the one thing most bloggers I know do, is highlighting and using colours and they normally write with pen. So, maybe invest in a good one - mine was 22 €, which is a lot of money for a notebook, that is not even a planner. But this year I decided that I will make my own personal planner and just put whatever I want in it. When you get a planner, just carry it around with you and when you will get a cool idea, just write it down and brainstorm on that idea and later on you will be able to make a better blog on it.


3.
Treats and coffee
Recently I made a deal with my friend, to only eat fruit and vegetables and ice cream, so here you see only the good things I eat, don't take it that I only eat healthy, because I really don't. But one thing that helps me blog and just focus more is if I make myself something to eat. And of course coffee. I can't even blog without coffee, which is probably bad, but I like to sip it while I write. It became like a thing for me, before I write I make myself a cup of coffee and something yummy and then blog just writes itself hah. One thing that I would also highly suggest is to drink a lot of water, not because it will make you a better blogger, but it will make you feel better and you will blog better if you will feel alright. Yes, you will go pee at least 5 times, because coffee + water = peeing. But it is really good for you. *Not sponsored by Jana, but Jana bottles are amazing.


4.
Good Camera
All I am telling you to do is to invest a lot of money into blogging, but it is true, if you want a good blog and good content, you will have to invest. And a good camera is probably the biggest investment and you will have to do it eventually. The first thing people see on your blog are pictures and if they are not pretty, they will click away and that is the sad truth, because your content could really be amazing, but it won't interest others because of bad photos. I try to always put pictures in a blog as well. I started with phone camera, then I bought Canon 1100D and now I have Canon 700D and underwater camera and fancy things. As you start you will have to really put your heart and soul into your blogs, so that you will be able to make that money back with blogging. But if it is what you like to do, then it is worth it.


5.
Choose a good theme and template and name
Before I had a blog called Fire Meet Gasoline, it was just Eva Premk Monroe and it looked like this, haha it was white&black, because I thought that was fancy and it had tortoises on it. It sucked, basically. So, I learned to do HTML, even bought a professional to make a blog appearance for me and teach me a few tips&tricks, got my domain and spend weeks looking for a perfect blog name, to really capture my heart and soul. Damn it Sia, making my blog famous. Another very important thing to remember is to have a theme, which I don't, thats why I am not famous, and just be a beauty or lifestyle or baking blogger and have one day or two days per week sorted out just for posting your blogs. Unfortunately, quantity wins over quality. But don't sellout. Find what you like and do that.


6. 
Music
When I blog, I always listen to music. Not many people can do that, but I can't do it without. My biggest tip here is to use headphones if you want to listen to music. Because you will be more focused, you wont listen to so many outdoor sounds and your mom, who will try to make you do the freaking dishes hah, shoutout to my mom! Well, you have to take time only for blogging. 

7. 
Find sponsors, but don't sellout
I will post a link up of my favourite page for finding sponsors and maybe you can check it out (not a sponsor, just a tip). If you want to make money out of blogging, you have to have sponsors and have a good audience. But do not, under any circumstances, sellout. If you do that, you will just go downhill from that. Recommend products that you like, shoutout to products and things and people, who are really good and don't spend your time writing a blog just to get some money. My best tip here is to just have a good idea for a video or for a post and find yourself sponsors. If you want to make a trip&blog or bake&blog or dog-related-stuff&blog just find brands that you like and send them an email and ask them if they would like to sponsor you. It is that easy.

That is it, for today, if you want me to make another blog post like this, maybe a part 2, just let me know and I am going to do it. Right now, I am going to take my buddy Thor out, and we will see eachother soon. Love you, bye! 
-Evs
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nedelja, 04. september 2016

BEST-DOG-SUPPING-SUMMER

nedelja, 04. september 2016

BEST-DOG-SUPPING-SUMMER

SUP DOGS

This Summer I really made a step forward with my dog and his water fears and I went supping at leats 10 times. But I think it was more. The best spot in Slovenia to do that is, for sure, Lake Bohinj.


All my friends are dog lovers and we all went supping together a couple of times. Imagine that: 10 people, 10 dogs, 2 cars. It was fun. But honestly, if you are looking for an amazing activity with your dog, you have to try supping, it is amazing. And it is very important for your dog to swim anyway. I have a great solution if you are afraid that your dog wont swim or if he is afraid of water OR basically to make him last longer in the water. The best invention on the planet: Ruffwear K9 Float Coat. As you can see on the picture all of us have float coats for our dogs. Ruffwear is one of the best dog gear brands I can recommend. They didn't let us down with a single product.


The fact that it doesn't cost a lot of money to sup all day is another reason why you should just decide to try it out. Thor is afraid of water and he will not go in on his own, but to be honest, now he started showing signs to go in and he is not shaking so much because he is nervous. It is a great way to get rid of water fears and just socialise more. I will admit it, when we were in the water, not a single dog was aggressive to others (and we had 3 males together). I think that when something like this is happening, all dogs just focus more more or activity, rather than other people and distractions.


I have to make a shoutout to the girls who made those 3 pictures: Anja, Monika and Eva. 


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ponedeljek, 29. avgust 2016

I AM FIREPROOF

ponedeljek, 29. avgust 2016

I AM FIREPROOF

Nothing breaks my heart. It's just the way I am.


I know that I may not the be the best thing for you right now and thats okay. I am the best version of me that I can currently be. I am trying my best and I've realised that being less for you means being more for myself and that's important because I am the only thing that I have left. When people leave they take everything that was built in the moments together, days, weeks, months, years together, they take it all away with them. All you are stuck with are memories and the only thing you are able to feel about those memories are how good did it feel. But it wasn't just all sunshine, you are just unable to see that when you miss somebody. And because in the last couple of months I have really went through this good phase in my life, I started to realise how much am I really worth and important. I gave everything I had for one person, who left when he was feeling dull and I lost more than you could ever imagine. I lost myself, so the only right thing to do was to build myself back up again and never do the same mistakes. Lesson learned. Today, I am a whole new person, unrecognisable. And I wanted to share how I changed and what really helped me find myself again and not feel sad all the time.

1.
Finding an interest again in things I loved before I was in a relationship. That is very important and very hard, because when you get through hard times, you don't really want to be happy and I managed to find my old interest after a few months, but I did it.

2.
Admit it that you need help. Admit that you are hurt. Not everybody can do it. If you aren't able to feel better, just admit it to yourself and go to the doctor and find help, because that is nothing to be ashamed for. If you break your leg it won't help you if you try and suck it up and act like nothing is wrong. Same goes for heart.

3.
Mark one thing: YOU CAN'T GET FIXED BY THE SAME PERSON WHO BROKE YOU. That was super hard for me to understand because in the moment, all I felt was how everything would be okay if he would just come back. No it wouldn't.

4.
The hardest part for me was to not be attached to things and photos and memories and clothes that reminded me of him. I deleted his pictures only a few weeks ago, because before I just couldn't do it. It hurt too much to just delete 3 years of my life. And then after 9 months, it felt right, because I got fixed.

5.
I always say how you should just delete all the songs that remind you of that person, but here I was wrong. I didn't delete them, I even increased the amount of listening to them, but then when it started to feel a little better, I got bored of listening to songs that remind me of him. And thats a good sign.

6.
When somebody tries to come into your life, it is okay if you say that you aren't ready. Honestly, I don't let anybody in and I back off if somebody mentions or even shows feelings and affections towards me. I got more careful and I don't just trust everybody like I did. It's not that I lost faith or anything, I just got so broken that I never want to feel it again and I am more careful about my emotions.

7.
There are a few movies that are in my head constantly when I think about how to feel better. And if you are going through a hard time, maybe you could watch them to feel a little better. First one is A Long Way Down and the second one is Jeux D'enfants (Love Me If You Dare).

8.
Let others help you. Recently I met somebody who does not ask questions about my past, who doesn't want to know about it and we just ramble on and on about life and that makes me incredibly happy. It helps me in a way to really see how people can treat you nicely. I used to think I didn't deserve it - to be treated nice and now I feel happy.

9.
That is a funny one, but if you ever feel like shit, just watch Game of Thrones, because Sansa can be your constant reminder how fucked up life you could have if you were her and you really should just be happy about your life and appreciate it more haha. Thats me.
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petek, 19. avgust 2016

Montenegro: DAY 4 & 5

petek, 19. avgust 2016

Montenegro: DAY 4 & 5









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