ponedeljek, 29. februar 2016


ponedeljek, 29. februar 2016


Today is leap year, which doesn't happen every year (I just don't know what should I write, so I am stating the obvious like 2 Chainz lol - you know what I am talking about). I just turned the stupidest introduction to the coolest one, which could only happen to me on a leap year. Because otherwise I am not that funny.

So, as every emotional women that there exists, I also watched that romantic comedy movie called Leap Year like 4 or 3 years ago, and I enjoyed it, which is even scarier than being an awful person watching romantic comedies just because there is a hot guy in it (damn!). I call that my pathetic-single-try-to-feel-better-watching-hot-guys phase. Don't judge, you did it too! But I am over that now. I would like to think I am better than that. Okay, back to business, the story of that movie is cool. 

Woman can only propose to a man on a leap year. That is the basic description of the movie. So, if your man doesn't want to put a ring on it, and you can't wait anymore, you just have to wait three years to put it on his. Which sounds kinda crazy to me, because I don't ever see myself proposing to anyone haha. Well, I am gonna trust my man (probably; when I will have one) that if he doesn't want to marry my ass, that it is not the right time (or girl haha *crying*). And I hope that he will trust me enough that he will know that I won't ever propose to him and put him in that awkward position. 

I have opinion about everything and I talk a lot and I would fight a lot with someone who will try to convince me differently than my belief, but I don't think that there is hotter thing than a guy who can handle that. So, I guess that I kinda changed my taste in men. I am basically saying that I am looking for someone who can handle me, but no. What I am looking for is someone who is not afraid to fight me and prove me wrong. I respect that. And there was a brilliant example of that in the movie. So, that made it worth watching for. 

So, if you aren't a big traditionalist like myself, and if you want to get married, today is your chance. I do respect that; I just would never do this myself. I am still waiting for Brendon and Sarah Urie to adopt me.
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Even as a little girl, I was impatiently waiting whole year to see The Oscars. I don't think you get it, but it was bigger to me than Christmas morning or my birthday. Today was a day when people would claim awards for what they have been working their asses off and today was the day when people got awards for doing something I love the most in the whole world. The Oscars. 

I watched probably all acceptance speeches there are from like 1990, not just because they super inspire, but also because they tell whole a lot about a person. Because by seeing someone's reaction when they get the most known award in a whole world; that really tells something about a person. Like do you remember when Halle Berry won and she couldn't speak, hell, she couldn't even breathe. That was really touching. Those are the moments I am really looking for. 

And this year I had my plans ruined (not that I am complaining hihi) by someone, and I could NOT sleep as I planned to, so I could wake up in the middle of a night and watch the actual thing. So, now as I should just turn on TV and watch it, I can't because I really wanted to tell you what this is about. That is a dedication. Like do you blog before you open presents on Christmas morning. I don't think so.

I think that I was never the only girl in the world who would make watching The Oscars such a big thing. I honestly think that each and every one of those people who were nominated or won did the same. You fall in love with acting from early years of your life. It doesn't normally happen when you are 30. It is something from the heart. It is the fact that you fall with someone's soul and body when you see what they can do, and what they can show. There are no words in the world to describe what I feel after watching a brilliant movie with great performance. And this (and The Golden Globes) is truly the night to honor what I believe in. It feels like the night was made just for me to enjoy. 

I turned my phone down and my iPad and I closed my computer tonight just because I didn't want any spoilers. I wanted it to be a first hand experience, but my stupid little sister was having a sleepover at my crib and she had to wake up early in the morning to go to school, and she woke me up by saying: ”EVA, LEO FUCKING WON!!!” So, I guess this is not going to be so exciting and nerve wracking for me to watch, but I did not go and Google his speech, even if I tried multiple times already, but I must contain this to at least act surprised. Oh, yeah, I cry when I see others cry on The Oscars. I ball my eyes out and I laugh and I basically pretend I am there. So, yeah I am crazy. 

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nedelja, 28. februar 2016


nedelja, 28. februar 2016


Disclaimer: This is inspired by a song called Stressed Out by TØP, because these guys are cool.

Just very recently (like two months ago) we moved to Grosuplje, because we are going to move to Mengeš and we are building a house there, or should I say we will build it in summer. But honestly we had no idea if we are going to be able to do it this or next summer, and we just got the news and a sign paper that is allowing us to start right away, so all my exes, get ready to be neighbors again lol. That is the strangest sentence I wrote here for years. No, for real, I am not sure if I am happy or sad about it.

No but seriously, I lived in Mengeš before and all I can think about is a song mention in the 'disclaimer'. ”Wish we could turn back time, to the good old days, when our momma sang us to sleep. but now we're stressed out.” That is some pretty great lyrics. And they really describe the feeling I am feeling. 

So, yeah apparently, that is great news for some people (that I told already), but I imagine it is not for quite a few people, that I used to hang out with. I must admit that seeing them again is going to be awkward. But yeah, I guess it is better than goddamn Grosuplje haha. But the forests here, and I imagine the whole warm season, should be great, because it is beautiful. 

Also, I am one step closer to making my drivers license, so congratulations are in order. (->Thank you!)

Also no.2 I burned my big finger, when I held a burning candle (that me and my ex made, which could be a sign). Oh well, it is in the trash already. It's not nice to burn people, stupid candle. My finger is like having a second degree burnings (hahaha get it, degree, because it was hot...no? Anyone?) I am just gonna leave you with this stupid joke. Bye!
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There is an unseen, secret and unspoken list in everyone's mind about who makes our life so worth living for. About who would we take a bullet for? 

And I am falling right now and I would like to take all the time in the world to say that not only that I would die for you, but also you are the reason I would live for. I've been thinking too much. But you picked me up when I had zero motivation in life and you were there with all the cool songs to show me what life really is about and you showed me what is important by encouraging me to tell you all my desires. You brought me food, because you are nice and you brought me flowers to make me smile (even thought I didn't like flowers). All the walks and the talks. All the time we laughed at random people we saw. And the time you told me you loved me; and the time you took my hand and try to balance me when I walked on fences. The hugs and kisses. That time you told me you would die for me. When you gave me your shirts and I looked like a rapper in them, because they were too big. And the hats you would only give me to borrow. All the songs you wrote for me and to me and because of me. Because sometimes to write something important we need someone who will inspire us; and I was your inspiration. All the time we spend searching for perfect songs to remind us of each other. All the fuck ups that made us get closer together. By that I mean all the crazy stuff I put in my head and you who would just say 'yes' to them all, without hesitation. Even if or parents were worrying sick and giving us curfews. All the plans we made for our future and all the things we needed to buy and all the dogs we were naming and the trips. And the big plan to move away when we would be 18, which of course we didn't. Remember sunsets? And the first time I sang in front of you or the first time we told others about what love really feels like. Remember when we were at the movies and watched that crazy movie and I balled my eyes in front of you, trying to hide it. All the secret letters and secret writings that you told me I could learn if I wanted to, because you trusted me. Remember all the lies they told about us and we would laugh and even fight about them. How stupid we were? We fought like married couple. But all the gifts and all the planning couldn’t compare with the feeling I felt. 

I've been thinking too much. I fallen and I am taking the time, because it doesn't matter that it ended. It doesn't matter that there is no way of us being together, and there is no way of us even being friends. But you surely gave me something way more important. I always loved you and I probably will for quite some time. I still feel inspired, even if you aren't here. I'd die for you, that's easy to say but I'd live for you and that's hard to do. 

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sobota, 27. februar 2016


sobota, 27. februar 2016


I made a list of all my favourite songs, I thought you would appreciate from my favourite bands! My name's Blurryface and I care what you think ;)


PANIC! AT THE DISCO - Death Of A Bachelor

FALL OUT BOY - Centuries

PANIC! AT THE DISCO - The End Of All Things


PANIC! AT THE DISCO - This Is Gospel (piano version)


FALL OUT BOY - Irresistible

PANIC! AT THE DISCO - Don't Threaten Me With A Good Time

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petek, 26. februar 2016


petek, 26. februar 2016


It's the most important thing there is. Love and the right person to spend your life with. But it is not a choice. Love finds you, you don't find love. It’s got a little bit to do with destiny, fate, what’s written in the stars. A lot to do with the simple fact most women are smarter than men kind. And wily. Your sorry butt never had a chance. But if you want to believe you had a choice in the matter, I’d say you made a good one.

At this moment, there are 7,404,549,671 people in the world. Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day. Others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men, that war with good. And some are good, struggling with evil. 7 billion people in the world. 7 billion souls. And sometimes, all you need is one. 

I was thinking about the finality of it all – how somebody can leave your world in the blink of an eye and be gone forever. It’s too enormous to think about. It’s too hard. And then you’re just supposed to go on, right, like just deal with it, I mean really you’re only supposed to be sad for as long as the flowers last and then, oh, time to go back to telling jokes and reminiscing about the old days.

You can choose to blame your circumstances on fate or bad luck or bad choices. Or you can fight back. Things aren’t always going to be fair in the real world. That’s just the way it is. But for the most part, you get what you give. Rest of your life is being shaped right now. With the dreams you chase, the choices you make, and the person you decide to be. The rest of your life is a long time. And the rest of your life starts right now...

I’ve come to the conclusion that if having things turn out the way you wanted them to is a measure of a successful life, then some would say I’m a failure. The important thing is not to be bitter over life’s disappointments. Learn to let go of the past. And recognize that every day won’t be sunny, and when you find yourself lost in the darkness and despair, remember it’s only in the black of night you see the stars. And those stars will lead you back home. So don’t be afraid to make mistakes, to stumble and fall, cause most of the time, the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. Maybe you’ll get everything you wish for. Maybe you’ll get more than you ever could have imagined. Who knows where life will take you. The road is long and in the end, the journey is the destination.

It’s the oldest story in the world. One day you’re 17 and planning for someday. And then quietly and without you ever really noticing, someday is today. And then someday is yesterday. And this is your life.

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sreda, 24. februar 2016


sreda, 24. februar 2016


Girls love girls and boys.

(disclaimer: I am not talking about myself, because the only person I really love is Brendon Urie)

As a representer of a female species, I just felt obligated to tell you that love is not a choice, so bugger off if girls like to experiment with other girls, when they feel so. That doesn’t necessarily mean that they are bisexual or gay, and that doesn’t necessarily mean that they are not. I think that sexuality should be defined by each individual alone, and not a crowd.

How many movies are there when they show you a perfect American house wife and then tell you that this house wife experimented in college with other girls. Like, I know that most men love to imagine girls together, but this is not about that. I think that you should express and use your body the way YOU want. I am sorry, but I am not going to talk about boys, because I don’t know what boys feel, but I imagine they feel the same.

I so truly understand that there are one too many discussions about this topic and I so truly understand that 200 years ago was not even a chance to be open minded with this topic. But seriously, loose the stigma. Because girls love girls and boys. Not all girls, maybe not even half, but even if its just 10% of girls that feel like being with a girl (maybe even just to try it out or to see where she is) are afraid to do so, because you tell them that this is not natural. Bollocks. If animals hump the same gender as them than that makes it natural. Like tell me you don’t know a single dog that doesn’t do this. If you don’t believe me Google it or turn on Animal Planet or Discovery Channel or whatever there is.

We don’t live in old church-inspires-only-straight kind of romance era. If we have computers that can basically order you food (that was the best example I could give, because I am hungry), and if there exist transgender (which I somehow totally get) and if Chinese people can create so many robots and such a cool technology and if we can clone dogs and other living beings, then girls can have some fun time with girls and not be judged for it.

Don’t start giving me examples of how many gay people you know that are mean and weird and how many gay people you know that are gay and are the coolest, because I know some pretty weird and mean straight people and I also know some pretty cool straight people. What and whom do you love doesn’t tell anything about how you are to others. 

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torek, 23. februar 2016


torek, 23. februar 2016


I do so get that you are full of hormones when youre like 12 and stuff, but I am not gonna put up with you, because thats not my job. I don't need girls telling me how I should act and threaten me and all this things. Like, chill out. I am just a blogger and I only express my own personal opinion. Attack me, but seriously leave my family or J or whoever is or was in my life out of it. I am so used to getting comments (even hate ones), but I get so defensive when I hear like the name of any of my family members. I did not steal anyone from anyone. If I am hanging out with guys that doesn't mean I am dating them or that I am having a romantic relationship with them. Don't just assume that and don't have the guts to send me hate stuff and think that I won't expose you, cuz I will. Don't act like know-it-all.

Second, my dogs. My dogs are my dogs. I don't share custody with anyone, as long as I know. They don't belong to you. Just because you like my pictures and my posts, that is not a reason to just take photos and say that they are your dogs. And the same goes for my friend Anja, because there is this girl or boy on Instagram @doggone_beautiful, and I randomly found out that she stole some pictures from Anja and I just told Anja and now that person is commenting me shit and annoying me all the time. What the hell is wrong with you?

Is it just me, or are crazy girlfriends and 12 year old girls just the worst?

Here enjoy my dog (photos by Anja Troha):

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I am on a bad side of the internet again, and because of this I am loosing young viewers. Like I care.
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”I want to love you, but if it’s not right what can I do. Everything will be alright,  get some sleep tonight.”
-       G-Eazy (Marilyn)

”Like no one’s watching you.”
-       The Temper Trap (Sweet Disposition)

”This is a foreground.”
-       Grizzly Bear (Foreground)

”You kept all the things I threw away. The leaf I picked, the birthday card I made.”
-       Gabrielle Aplin (Panic Cord)

”You be the king, I’ll be the people. I was being such a wreck I thought you treat me unkind. But you helped me change my mind. Forever, no matter what, you got my love to lean on darling, no matter what.”
-       Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros (That’s What’s Up)

”Your love is worth it and for that I will wait. I drive you crazy but you always return.”
-       Raleigh Ritchie (Bloodsport)

”All the friends tell our friends we are so dramatic.”
-       The Hawk In Paris (Freaks)

”And then we broke up and she went west and I went east. She got a new boyfriend. A little too soon if you’re asking me. But I’ve heard that she loves him a little bit more than she ever loved me.”
-       Tom Odell (Supposed To Be)

”Love will tear us apart, again.”
-       The Time Travelers Wife (Love Will Tear Us Apart)

”And so it is, just like you said it would be. Life goes easy on me, most of the time.”
-       Damien Rice (The Blowers Daughter)

”Why would you make me do this? You’re my best friend in a whole world. Yeah, you’re more than that Jemma and I could find the courage to tell you, so please, let me show you.”
-       Fitz & Simmons (Agents Of S.H.I.E.L.D.)

”I will love you forever Sid. You will? Yes, that’s the problem.”
-Cassie (generation 1)

”I can feel the heat rising. Everything is on fire. Today is a painful reminder.”
-       Eminem & Sia (Beautiful Pain)

”I made a lot of mistakes, and you know some of them made me.”
-       Sanders Bohlke (My Baby)

”You said I was great, you said I could be great, you said we were destined to be together. You said it to the world and you said it to me and I wish you never had because you did not mean any of it.”
-       Peyton Sawyer (One Tree Hill)

”If you must die, sweetheart… die knowing your life was my life’s best part.”

”I got some taste for men who older.”
-       Lana Del Ray (Pepsi Cola)

”I am not gonna kill you, I am just gonna hurt you. Really, Really bad.”
-       The Joker (Suicide Squad)

”It’s dangerous to fall in love but hey, wanna burn with me tonight? You hurt me. We were made for one another, come a little closer.”
-       Sia (Fire Meet Gasoline)

”You left. I needed help and you gave up on me.”
-       Fitz (Agents Of S.H.I.E.L.D.)

”If you love me let me go. This words are knives that often leave scars.”
-       Panic! At The Disco (This is Gospel)

”World was on fire and no one could save me but you.”
-       Chris Isaak (Wicked Game)

”Let me escape in your arms. Baby, I am yours. Love don’t come easy at us. I miss you so much.”
-       Major Lazer (Be Together)

”If you’re strong enough to let him in, you’re strong enough to let him go.”
-       Birdy (Let It All Go)

”I move to you like a magnet. Maybe we could be magic, stuck in emotional traffic. Is there some kind of magic? I am a sucker for your tricks.”
-       San Cisco (Magic)

”You gotta keep on keeping on even if with the feeling that you’re gonna keep loosing.”
-       Brendon Urie (Keep On Keeping On)

”I’ve told you time and time again I am not as think as you drunk I am.”
-       Panic! At The Disco (Don’t Threaten Me With A Good Time)

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ponedeljek, 22. februar 2016


ponedeljek, 22. februar 2016


”All you sinners stand up and sing hallelujah.”

Today I am sharing an old Skins wisdom and that is to say ‘YES’ and ‘FUCK IT’ more. I know it just started and I am already cursing. 

Want to prank your stupid ex? Why the hell not?

Want a loving pet that will only love you? Sure.

Want to travel the world? Okay.

Want to move away? Do it.

There are no limits. Just don’t get caught doing stupid stuff. If you ask me, life passes us by so quickly; we don’t really get to live to all the things we want. But life doesn’t depend on chances. Actually it depends on us individuals. Some people see more in 20 years than others in 80. Can’t you see it? You want to ask your crush out? Want to see Paris at Midnight? Sleep on the beach. Do all the bucket things on your list? Then why don’t you do it? If you want to make it out with someone, don’t wait. That is the stupidest wasted time, when you waste it for love. Even if you don’t want or like somebody, just fall in love with things. With places and food and early morning coffee. Because if I learned something I would say that all we do is art.

Art gives us some sort of a power, to create and to feel so much, I never thought we could. All we do is art. How you dress. The way you love someone, and how you talk. Your smile and your personality. What you believe in, and all your dreams. The way you drink your tea. How you decorate your home. Or party. Your grocery list. The food you make.  How your writing looks. And the way you feel. Life is art.

But my goals are so big; I get uncomfortable telling small-minded people. Because there are only two kinds of people in this world; hopeless romantics and realists. And not all of us are in the same group.

We have all hurt someone tremendously. Whether by intent or accident. We have all loved someone tremendously. Whether by intent or accident. It is an intrinsic human trait and a deep responsibility.  I think to be an organ and a blade. But learning to forgive others and ourselves because we have not chosen wisely is what makes us most human. We make horrible mistakes. It’s how we learn. We breathe love. It’s how we learn. And it is inevitable.

Out of context: I am so afraid to meet Brendon Urie. What if I hug him and accidentally pick him up and just start walking away with him… like what then? His notes are higher than all of my hopes and dreams in life. Like you could do so many drugs but you will never get as high as his high notes.

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nedelja, 21. februar 2016


nedelja, 21. februar 2016


Disclamer: Over The Moon - Crazy person full of energy

As I have already announced here - I got dumped by the boyfriend of 3 years nearly 3 months ago and I was not okay by that. I was sad and mad and depressed until now. Until I first saw Brendon Urie. Yeah, you are going to think this is a joke, but honestly it isn’t. Brendon is the new Robert Sheehan. I am in love with Panic! At The Disco. 

It started a few months ago when I was watching a Youtube tutorial for dressing up like Brendon in the video Emperor’s New Clothes, where he is basically the devil. But don’t get me wrong. I knew Panic! From The Nightmare Before Christmas and Jennifer’s Body and I knew a few of the songs that were popular a decade ago like I Write Sins Not Tragedies, but I never ever typed ‘Panic! At The Disco’ on Youtube. Okay, back to the story… after watching that tutorial I clicked to the actual video and I loved (not just loved but adored) the video and the way it is made and then I fell for the song. I let it set on my mind and I occasionally watched it for a couple of weeks, but then I did another step and clicked on ‘This Is Gospel’ and I was caught. For the last week I have been obsessively listening Brendon for like 24/7. I am waking to his voice and go to sleep listening to his voice. Like, that’s talent. I don’t remember the last time I heard a man sing so high-pitched notes AND also so low-pitched notes. He is pure talent.

But the crucial moment for me falling so hard for this guy is he and his sense for life. I can’t explain it better but to say that he made me feel like life is so worth it and that Jan was not the love of my life like at all. I need to wait for someone like Urie. Like that’s the guy that can’t stop moving and working cool stuff and inspire others. I am beyond impressed and just in love. He probably saved my life at this point, because I was so ready to give up on life and he just inspired me to be the best possible me that I can be. I am sorry for repeating words ‘like’ and ‘I’, but I am just in such a rush to write how excited and happy I am. I can’t slow down.

I am doing a driving license for one and only reason – to go to their concert in summer and see them live (and also to buy all the merch that is existent).

For the end, I decided to write how hot and gorgeous and divine Brendon Urie looks. He is so hot, I am like pfeeewf. Over the moon. And I thought I knew what pretty means.

”Champagne, Cocaine, Gasoline and most things in between, I roam the city in a shopping chart, A pack of camels and a smoke alarm, This night is heating up, Raise hell and turn it up, Saying if you go on you might pass out in a drain pipe, Oh yeah, Don’t threaten me with a good time.”

Here you go, I am not as think as you drunk I am.
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torek, 09. februar 2016


torek, 09. februar 2016


It hit me just yesterday that I am actually going to be alone, and it hit me hard, but honestly today is a completely different story. Whatever. Why do I need someone on that day? It is just another day. So, I am all in to tell you what you can do to feel a little better on this day. Because not that I care, but everybody gets sad sometimes and seeing lovebirds everywhere and being just dumped, isn’t really a good feeling. So, enjoy this list that mostly contains things to eat, because I am that kind of person:

 ·      TO EAT:
-       Wine and cheese. Honestly, is there anything better than being hungry and eating cheese without any bread, just to taste the flavor and maybe this time try to combine four different cheeses and add red wine. I am not encouraging you to drink alcohol, but it is proven that small amount can change your mood and even health. So, no hard feelings for wine. But just to advise you, choose four completely different cheeses. My picks would be salty Parmigiano Reggiano; creamy BIO goat cheese , which goes perfectly with olives and a little bit of salad; spicy cheese, whichever you want, and of course Gouda, which has a little bit nutty taste; and just in case add Gorgonzola.
-       Nuts. They are an energy bomb. They are a great choice to have on Valentines. But my pick would be to caramelize them. What is more delicious than caramel? Nuts in caramel. Trust me on that one.
-       This is my go to recipe for easiest desert ever and the best part is that it is made in microwave and it takes 2-3 minutes to make. Yeah it sounds impossible to believe, but here is how chocolate soufflé is made. You will need 2 free-range large eggs, 20g of flower, 20g of butter 80g of chocolate and 70g of sugar. Now you can combine eggs, butter and sugar and wisp it until it looks fluffy. Then slowly add flower and after that add chocolate. After you have combined all of the ingredients, prepare mugs (I prefer that) and just pour it equally to your mugs and dust a little bit cocoa powder in top of that. Then put your microwave on high temperature and just leave them for 2 minutes or three (depends on your equipment). The middle part shouldn’t be ”baked”, and it should be liquid. And here you go. I would add some berries with that, but that is on you.
-       Make your own chocolate. You can make white or black or normal, whatever you like. And the great part is that you can spice it up however you want. Do like chili chocolate? Maybe with rosemary? Or with nuts? The decision is all yours. That literally takes no time at all. You just melt chocolate and add the ingredient of your choosing and put it in models and put the whole thing to a fridge for like less than 10 minutes. 

·      TO DO:
-       Go to the cinema and watch whatever you want. Maybe choose a horror story. Something you would normally never watch alone.
-       Volunteer that you will babysit your friend’s dog, so she can have a relaxing day with her boyfriend and just take care of a puppy. What could be better?
-       Make ‘happy notes’. I do them all the time. When I am sad I write positive things of sticky notes and just put them whenever I think I will need them. Like on my nightstand or my wallet.
-       Go to the library. It just happens that I have the coolest people in our library and they can definitely choose something for me to read. Find a book you think you’ll like. Maybe choose the book with prettiest cover.
-       Write V-day card and just send them to everyone you want. That is really something on my bucket list to do.
-       Text your ex. Whatever if he is a dick. Whatever if he doesn’t deserve it or if he ignores it. Send him a joke and laugh for 10 minutes about it. Mess with him or prank him. Look, it is your life. And life is too short to not do stupid things.
-       Wear stupid clothes that you don’t dare to wear when you go out. Put them all on and just dare yourself. Push yourself. Break limits. What if someone thinks you’re weird? Screw people.
-       Listen to George Ezra. That guy knows how to put you in a good mood, trust me. You can also try San Cisco.
-       If you want to be productive and make some money just sell all that books from high school or that stupid collection of your CD’s that you don’t need anymore.
-       Go to a spa. Yes, spa is always an answer.
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