nedelja, 29. januar 2017

I KNOW YOU CAN NOT.

nedelja, 29. januar 2017

I KNOW YOU CAN NOT.

One of the biggest struggles in this world, I say that, because I am struggling a lot with it, is doing something else. Going out of your personal little fluffy bubble, and try something new. 


If you are always going to do what you are already doing, you are never going to become a better person.

Being twenty, almost twenty-one, I started thinking about how to really evolve and do something defining with my life. That, for me, means maybe find a proper job, maybe move out and be more mature. Maybe it means start working on this blog more or buying a van and pass driving license and start my van life, I don't know. I know it definitely means finishing college and moving out asap.

Yet, I think that being twenty, and being me, that is kind of a difficult situation, because my family supports me and I am really the kind of person who wants to blog all day and do artsy stuff, but I want to move away and I want to start a life I always wanted, with dogs and travels and jobs and studying. But being twenty (since I am always making excuses based on my age) means I get to start considering my future in a whole new prospective, but my boy is still younger than me, he still see it differently. And that means that I will have to do it myself, on my own. Without any help. And I honestly fear doing those stuff alone, because of a constant feeling that I can't do it. But if I am always going to do the same things, I am going to be stuck here, doing what I am doing now and thats not who I want to be. I want to do better things, I want to grow up a little, not too much, but just enough to really be able to have things I always wanted, and to be happier.


Being afraid of doing things alone sucks, and I hate the thought of me going to work, yet I have to do it, because it is time, it is what will make me happy. I am not happy with who I am now, that is probably the main reason why I am struggling with posting blogs, because sometimes doing something for the first time, alone, is scary. But its not impossible. Almost everyone is doing it and I am not doing it. I see my friends getting married and having kids and moving in with eachother, and I am not saying that I envy them, I just want something more to happen with my life. And doing nothing about it, is not going to help me get there.

And right now I am doing nothing.

The moto I invented (that probably already exists, its super accurate) that I am trying to live by is: "You can do anything if you want it enough". And I will try to listen to my own advice more.
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nedelja, 22. januar 2017

WE WRITE OUR OWN STORY

nedelja, 22. januar 2017

WE WRITE OUR OWN STORY

I don't know what future holds for us, all I really know for sure is that we can do anything we want.

We write our own story. That means that we are responsible for everything that happens to us, we are the only ones to really have the last word about how our lives will turn out to be. And that is so important to understand, because sometimes we get told to do something, because apparently its good for us, and if you think it is not - then do not do it.

Photo taken by: Anja Troha ♥
In a few years or decades no one is going to remember days when you were sitting behind your computer, but you are going to tell stories to your kids and grandkids about that one time you went swimming in the middle of a winter, or when you wanted to go to Nanos with Clio, that is older than you are and the road was so icy, we just skated back down. You are going to remember every single thing about the day(s) that you went to sleep late at night because you were so tired, because your day was so amazing and you didn't even want it to end. I remember when we were returning from Poland, I cried in the car, cuz I had the best time and it was coming to an end, and I didn't wanted it to end. And that are all stories I am going to pass them on to other people.

And if your parents or the fact that you are lazy or a coward keep you from greatness, then you should consider my words again. There are so many different lives we could live based on our decisions. So, maybe the answer to how you should live life lies in a simple question: "Are you happy?". If you are, then you are definitely going places and you are definitely destined to greatness, but if you are not then its so simple - start doing something about it. The time is NOW. Not a single human is happy 100% of the time, and sometimes we need pause from everything, but that doesn't mean we are failing.

Photo taken by: Jaka Zorman ♥
I am just so happy that I am writing all these stories and collecting all this "boxes of memories". I am so happy that I have a bunch of people, who make me this happy and who help me get through it all. But I will never understand what I did to deserve someone so important and good as Nejc, because the support and love and happiness I feel is indescribable.

Life I am living right now, in this moment, is the best life possible - life I've always wanted to live. I am destined to some really amazing things and I am so ready to go get them. 
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nedelja, 08. januar 2017

16 THINGS I LEARNED IN 2016

nedelja, 08. januar 2017

16 THINGS I LEARNED IN 2016

Picture by lovely Anja Troha ♥ 
1. Take chances on people and opportunities. Even if you have been let down like 10 thousand times, you gotta have faith in everything and everyone.

2. You are exactly WHAT you consider yourself to be. Not what other people define you to be. Or want you to be.

3. Tell people you love, that you love them. A lot. All the time. And tell people you hate that you hate them. Probably best if not a lot & all the time, but you know, express how you feel with actions and words.

4. Grow up. Start doing things, start saving money, buy a car, get a job, grow up but don't change your inner kid, don't grow to a grumpy old lady, but grow to an adventurous human who just bought a van and is traveling and blogging through Europe.

5. Say 'fuck it' and say it all the time. Taking crazy chances in life can take you everywhere, while sitting at home takes you, well... no where.

6. You gotta have fun all the time, even when its hard, even when you have to get out of your comfort zone, just have fun.

7. Do things, even if people around tell you NO.

8. Drink water!!! And start eating things you hate, you hate them for no reason.

9. Trust. Trust that some people want whats good for you. Trust that not everyone is going to hurt you or leave you. Trust in good. 

10. Buy plants. Plants make you happy, even if you hated them all your life. They turn a house into a home.

11. Write. Read. Watch. Listen. Get inspired by everything that impresses you. And make sure you make something good out of it. Because what inspires us, makes us a person we are.

12. If you are a girl, don't be afraid to do the thing. You can kiss a guy first, you can hug him first, you can smack that ass first haha, okay I am loosing track here. But you know, it won't kill you if you do something first yourself.

13. Push your friends. Make sure you remind them to work, to do good and then be super duper happy for their success. Because that the most beautiful thing on earth. Seeing people you love happy.

14. Go on road trips. Every week. 

15. Don't look for soulmates, let the universe do its thing. 

16. Always be the best version of yourself. And do what you want and what you like. And what you were destined to be. ♡
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torek, 03. januar 2017

WHAT IS LOVE?

torek, 03. januar 2017

WHAT IS LOVE?

You ask people about love and they tell you about heartbreak. Not everyone that loves you is going to leave you.


I asked my closest friends what is love to see how the answer would vary:

- Actually it is really hard to define love, just because I never thought about what love really is, but if I had to say what it is, its a good feeling when you are with a certain person, that you stay the same and that you don't change to fit in and that people accept you for who you are.


- Love is something really beautiful, but it can be complicated as hell, all in one. We can love ourselves, we can feel it for other people, like our friends, family members or our crush and animals. there is also the kind of love for hobbies (sports, video games, photography, traveling...). What is love to me? Well, thats hard to explain. For example; I have a boyfriend and we have been together for almost 8 months now. I remember myself being "crazy in love" at the beginning. Because of what I felt for him I wanted to spend as much time with him as humanly possible. I could say that love changed me a bit and sadly I forgot about my friends, some times. But the feeling I had months ago was indescribable and I was happy all the time, no matter what was going on those days. Now I am back to normal. I still love him like crazy and all, I just have time for me and my friends again. Love is really important for me, and I can proudly say that I love my family, dog, all my friends, their dogs and all the adventures we've spent together. Love your life & yourself & people around you.



- I don't know how to say this... it is hard to describe with words, but technically is a mixed feeling of this feelings: belonging to someone, the fact that you just love someone (that you are willing to anything for that person) and that you can trust someone... and it could be the stupidest thing to trust them and you still trust them, and that you can be yourself and that you don't try to be perfect but just be you.

- Thats impossible to put as definition.


- Love to me is when I look into her eyes, my hearts jumps, when she laughs I laugh with her, when she is sad I try to make her happy again. It is an emotion  that is so beautiful. When I first saw her, I could barely walk and I got this thing in my throat, because I was just like: gosh, I love her. When she looks at me I don't just feel butterflies, I feel stones in my stomach, because I feel so loved. Love is a feeling of warmth and honesty and trust and friendship and sharing those feelings with a certain person. Thats love. Feeling safe and the fact that I feel like I can figure out the world with her, that I can fly over the clouds. Because I am such a clumsy person I can't even walk properly and everything I do with her is the most beautiful thing in my life and it makes me want to spend every second by her side, to get to know her even more. I want to share things with her and tell her everything I know. To greet her good morning every morning and good night every evening and to I tell her how much I love her every single day. That we learn things together and do all the stuff and even more... I would write more, but my mom wants me to go study now haha.



What is love to me?

I wish I had a straight answer to that question, but to be honest I am learning every single day what that is. If you would ask me that a year ago my answer would be completely different. I always thought that love is what me and my boyfriend had, I always thought that it was the best feeling in the world when I was with him. But love is not my ex boyfriend. It is a heart break, it is the pain that someone causes you when they leave you, it's discovering who you are when you loose everything, it is my friends when they tell me stupid jokes and sometime I just stop and stare at them and think about how stupid and awesome they are, it is Nejc when he tries to study math and he looks like a lost puppy, it is my dog when he is secretly sneaking on my bed in the middle of a night after we had a disagreement, it is my family when we dine together, or when my sister sings the same song she learned in kinder garden for the 50th time. It is what we do, its not what we say or try to define. Love is a choice, and if people love us and tell that to us is because they genuinely feel THE feeling that can't be described - they feel happy for no particular reason, they feel alive and comfortable and insanely good around us. And thats love, a bunch of feeling and a bunch of thoughts and countless moments of joy with someone. I always though that love was just one word for feelings that we have for someone that means the world to us. I know I love Thor so much I would rather die than let anything happen to him, and that feeling of love can't be described. Its everything. Just hearing a certain song makes me instantly think about someone I love. It means we belong. And I belong to Nejc, I belong to my dog and my friends and my family. I belong to so many people and so many things just because I love them. And defining what is love is impossible, because you can't describe feelings you feel for something. Its not possible, because they are enormous.
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