sobota, 13. oktober 2018

What is written in my stars

sobota, 13. oktober 2018

What is written in my stars

Hello everybody!

If I am being completely honest, I never believed in astrology, stars and sign attractions. Obviously, I always like to read if me and my crush are match made in heaven, but other than that I was never really interested in it. So, for today's post I decided to sign up on this big and famous astrology site and put down all my informations and just read it and go through what it says and I will tell you if I agree or not agree.


The Sun represents vitality, a sense of individuality and outward-shining creative energy. I agree to some extent, because I do have that creative vibe, but I am not very individual.

Taurus natives are sensual folk--and this includes sex, but extends to pleasures in all areas: they delight in the sensual pleasures of food, a comfortable blanket, a richly colored aquarium to look at, the smell of flowers or spring rain, pleasing melodies coming from their stereos, and so forth. Some might even say they live through their senses more than most. 100 % accurate.

The possessiveness associated with Taurus shows up in all areas of life in some way. Taurus likes to own things (and sometimes people). A nice home, a piece of land (this can be modest), a paid-off car, that aquarium mentioned earlier, a couple pets, maybe a solid business...In love and relationship, there is an earthy kind of possessiveness that may be considered jealousy by some, but there is actually quite a difference between being possessive and being jealous. Taurus natives are rarely jealous and petty. They do, however, think of the people they love as theirs--it adds to their sense of security. As horrible as that sounds, that is me. I always like to own boyfriends. They can only live for me and no one else haha, sounds so clingy, but if I know that they feel the same way I give them more space than normal people. But I just have to be reassured that they are mine. And I like pets, obviously. 

She is strong-willed. She has charm, and is tolerant and stoical. She likes pleasure and the good things in life. Appreciates the Arts. That's me, yes.

Weaknesses: obstinacy, laziness. She can be materialistic. Yes, I am lazy, but I consider myself as the opposite of materialistic. I can promise you that I am not.

Your compassion sets you apart from others, but try to work with it rather than let your compassion work against you by reinforcing your own sense of loneliness. What a good advice, for real, that is so me.

Likes to throw herself into the unknown and into adventure: she is agile, tough and enthusiastic. Attracted to long voyages, to discover the unknown. YEEEES! Audacious, bold and rebellious. Unable to stay in one place, is always ready to risk everything to achieve her goal. It almost seems like my mom is describing me.

Marriage is very important for her, for better or for worse. Cannot stand being alone. Likes business relationships, especially partnerships. This might sound stupid, but I really want to get married one day. I want someone who will be like so over the moon with me that we will both just want to marry right away and be together forever. And when we will be old we will laugh about how crazy we were.

Weaknesses: stubborn, obstinate, withdrawn. Slow to react. HAHAHA, stubborn is pretty accurate and I am kinda slow to react.

She has difficulty expressing herself, especially when young. Does not talk much, she does not speak for the sake of it. She works in remote and quiet places. She is discrete and philosophical. NO! Quiet is difficult for me and I am too dumb to be philosophical, but I do tend to make my own philosophies. A lot.

She can put down in writing everything that her imagination and intuition dictates. I always loved that about myself, but usually when I write something personal, I can't share it with anyone.

She may be impatient. She likes contradiction. Her arguments are noisy and animated. Hell yes. I can be very aggressive with my opinions and I like to impose others with my ideas. 

You will find yourself attracted by the occult and other mysteries but it is recommended that you avoid those subjects because they can generate certain fixations or obsessiveness. I am scared of how true this is. I will probably just write a single post about this.

She has big emotional highs. Either I have big highs or lows. Nothing in between.

She is full of contradictions. She is original, tending to the eccentric, violent, headstrong, impatient and irascible. She fights to the bitter end to overcome hurdles, and has the strength to overcome them. That's me. Quiet is violent.

She is interested in the occult. She can work in a field associated with death e.g. as a funeral director. Marriage can help financially, the spouse having money. HAHAHHAHA OH MY, I JUST DIED. If I were to see a dead body I would probably collapse. But I have a really curious personality and I probably feel what most people don't feel. I have a crush on almost everyone I meet, but then it fades away. HAHAH love the money part.

Interested in humanity. She is highly intellectual. She travels a lot. Her mind is always alert, even when sleeping, during which time she often resolves the problems of the previous day. People never believe me when I tell them I've always know how to lucid dream. And my eyes look very alert.

She cannot live a peaceful love life. She will have lots of adventures, lots of love-at-first-sights which will lead her into dangerous territory, will complicate and even perhaps poison her life. Good to know.

Love dominates her life. She could lose her head over someone to whom there's an intense attraction, which can become troublesome, because she loses all idea of reality. If she is not loved in return, so what - she will love for the two of them. With time, if the loved one loses patience, she will have difficulty disentangling herself and she can suffer enormously. It's best to look to a trusted outside source for guidance in vulnerable times. How accurate is this?! Sometimes when I read things like that and relate, I feel like the worst human ever, but I feel like that with every relationship I've ever and I loved for the both of us. And I always get crazy ideas and I lose the idea of reality. Sad, really.

I left out some sexy stuff, just because the majority of my readers are still underage. I thought this was going to be really fun, but I feel kind of down and all depresso. How can this be so accurate? I have no idea. It is like somebody that knows me wrote this text. Is this me? Is this my life? Well, I hope you enjoyed this, I certainly haven't. 
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četrtek, 11. oktober 2018

LET'S TALK ABOUT ME; part 3 (porn update, Kylo, girls)

četrtek, 11. oktober 2018

LET'S TALK ABOUT ME; part 3 (porn update, Kylo, girls)

Hello everybody!

Oh man, oh gosh... when was the last time we did this kind of posts? I feel like I sort of forgot about it, because sometimes I think that you don't want to read about me and my moods and life, but then you remind me of this and I get excited again. So, I decided to bring it back and this is the third part of 'Let's talk about me'. And I decided to answer your questions I got over time. Only the ones that would fit here. If you want to ask me anything, I always try to answer as soon as possible.

What is your style?
That is a really cool question I got ages ago. Well, at the time being it was really skater/tomboy kind of style. With lots and lots of layers. I would always wear skinny jeans and oversized hoodies and a baseball cap. And I would make my eyebrows darker than normal and have big puffy hair. And I would make my eyes appear bigger than they are, just because I had a phase of having big eyes, and now over time I realised that my eyes are already super big and making them appear even bigger is absurd haha. But now I guess, my style is still pretty much similar, but I dress more girly and something that fits me more. I have a really skinny waist and tummy, but then I have bigger ass and boobs, so I started dressing a bit more (not revealing but) flattering, if that makes sense.

How is your porn life doing?
Oh man, I wish I knew. Let me check it out. Okay, at the moment I can't find it, but I am sure its going better than my normal life.

Whos the person behind your stories, writing, inspiration?
There is never just one. Most of the time I write about people from my past, but not necessarily. Depends on the subject, time and my mood. The funny part is, I rarely prepare my topics and I never write in advance. I do keep a notebook with me all the time and it is full of ideas and drawings and random thoughts and darkest secrets, but when I usually start writing, a whole new idea comes out of it and it is almost always different from what I imagined it would be at the beginning. Also, I really enjoy writing stories, real and raw and funny and dark. I take content from my life & from people from my life. So, if you think it is about somebody you know, it might just really be that person, or not at all. Hope that this answer that is not really an answer helps haha. 

How are you?
I always like this kind of questions, thank you. I'd say I am really great. My health is okay-ish apart from my witchy-bloody-eye (really cool) and migraines I've been having (nothing major). Arthritis is doing okay. School is good and my dogs are perfect. I've also been feeling really inspired lately and there is a new job opportunity open for me and I am semi excited, semi worried. But this year we have been doing super practical things and writing a lot and taking pictures and editing much more than before, so I am feeling super duper.

What is the worst and the coolest thing you have done?
Let's start with the coolest, because my name is actually Eva Premk Monroe the Coolest. Nothing but stupid things come to mind, but I adopted Orca, I got Kylo Ren picture for my wallet (khm), I've been reading more and doing more fulfilling things lately and I am working a lot more. The worst... I am the kind of person who needs to be saved and I hate that. And I always drive people crazy because I made them love me and then I do everything the wrong way. But I try to be more easy to love. I feel too much.

Favorite quotes of 2018?
Favorite TV series?
Favorite music?
Favorite people?

There is only 24 hours and thats not enough to lie like you lie or love like you love.
She is a beautiful fucking rainbow and her beautiful face is the least beautiful thing about her.
You can't love somebody back to life.
Because some nights it was you who stopped my heart from breaking.
If I died, would you just be like: "Oh I hope I can make rent."
You should never be anyone's fucking slave. Except mine.
Well, when you love someone you don't have to be nice all the time.
If you come up here, I'm gonna tie you to my bed and keep you for at least 3 days, I'm just in that kinda mood.
Don't just think, okay? It is an extremely unattractive feature of your generation.
I just want someone who wants to hang out all the time and thinks I'm the best person in the world and wants to have sex with only me.
WWJD (What would Jessa do?)
You can't break up with me. I wouldn't be eating pizza in front of you if I actually liked you.
Who needs boys when you can have like sugar?

Handmaid's Tale
How I Met Your Mother (forever)
Killing Eve
Game of Thrones
The End of the Fucking World

Twenty øne Pilots
Lana Del Rey
She Will Always Hate Me (song)
Alex Ernst
Panic! at the Disco

Jodie Comer
Max Minghella
Imogen Poots
Kaya Scodelario
Andrew Scott
Jemima Kirke
Alex Karpovsky
Robin Lord Taylor

Okay, expect part 4.
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sreda, 10. oktober 2018


sreda, 10. oktober 2018


Hello everybody!

Let's go straight to the point. I am a witch.
On Sunday I watched a really funny stand up comedy show on Netflix called Ali Wong: Hard Knock Wife (I recommend it to all you beautiful dirty bastards like myself) and I laughed so hard, I cried actual tears. Sounds really cool, but some jokes were really so dirty and raw I was crying for the whole hour. I mean, she is the funniest person I have ever seen in my life. SO, because I was laughing so hard, I started bleeding from my eyeball. Super hot, I know. But supposedly I broke my eye vessel.
And some people find me super interesting and badass, but other people are actually afraid of me (my dream come true) and I would just like to say: Imma witch now. Come on, I look out of this world witchy, I have light blue eyes, brown curly hair and blood in my eyes. I just need a black cat and black coat. Thats not a problem for me, I like cats, I like to spook people. Its perfect. And its OCTOBER. Couldn't my eye vessel just wait for like three weeks until Halloween. That would be badass, just saying.
One more incident I had while having creepy eye. Someone actually stopped me at my Uni and asked me if I am aware of my bloody eyeball. So yes, I'm making friends with this thing. It is a win win situation. I hope this blood never goes away, because it is making me look like a sexy beast.
And also, I always like to say that introverts, like me, don't get friends, they get adopted by extroverts. With this creepy eye, I am more noticeable and more extroverts liked. Thank you Jesus. Or is it Satan... now that I am a witch?
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četrtek, 04. oktober 2018

Parallel worlds colliding

četrtek, 04. oktober 2018

Parallel worlds colliding

It is officially Fall. Or Autumn. 

There is a special excitement in the air when Autumn starts. It means that I will finally be moving back to the seaside and I will go back to University. But I will also light some really delicious-smelling candles and enjoy my cozy brown scarves. It is just the best time of the year, if you ask me.

At the very beginning, on my very first day of being back at Uni, I had an epiphany. We were discussing with the Professor the topic of writing. What makes an individual a good writer? Are you born with the ability of being a talented writer or do you grow into one if you put enough energy and practice into it? Do all good writers read? And I came to the conclusion that you can be good at many different things if you have a lot parallel worlds.

Parallel worlds are different interests of a certain individual, who is passionate about more than one certain thing.

Let's take me, for example. One day I aspire to write something that means something to someone. But at the same time I want to always include my dogs and photography and blogging into it. It makes me happy and if I include all those parallels into my life, I think I can truly make something big.

My Professor said: ''Nothing matters, if you don't do other things, besides school.'' In my case, he was trying to point out that I should read and practice more, if I want to write something good. Yes, my style and vocabulary has improved since 2012, but can I write something more significant than someone who studies Geography can? I still don't think I can. I am no where near ready, and I would really like to be. So, I officially decided to make this my 8-hours-a-day job. Not just blogging, but planning, taking photos, educating my dogs, editing and just thinking of ideas and hoping that I will be a bit closer to my goal.

And I wish that for you too. That you know what you want and even if you aren't near that goal, that you start doing something (besides school) that will get you closer to it. At least closer to the dream job of your life.
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